That night

Explain

I see a sliver yellow coming from an artificial light a warm hard object under me as I left my head I feel bandages on my right arm and chest along with and ice pack over top of my for head.

"How are you feeling?" I hear a voice coming from above me but I shrug it off and start to sit up, I get a little spooking when the thing I'm laying on sits up with me. Bringing my body into his arms making sure I didn't try to stand up. "Maddie, what happened?"

I peek up and see the gorgeous green orbs looking back at me and his soft words coming from his plump pink lips. "Am I dreaming?" He chuckles not realizing it wasn't a joke and that a dreamt about him every day. He catches on and takes my hand in his.

"No Maddie, I'm here, really here. and I"m not going anywhere." He presses his lips to mine and I miss the warm feeling of being in his arms and listening to his breath. Then I remember the things that had happened last night and i start to panic.

"Rachel...Where's Rachel!"

"Rachel"s fine, she"s sitting in the back room with Liam. Speaking of, what the hell happened last night." I peek up, pressing the ice pack the had fallen to the floor hard against my head and i debate on telling him the truth or not.

"You guys are supposed to hate me"

"What?"

"You...and everyone else is supposed to hate me so that when i die, it won't matter"

<HARRYS POV>

I look at her and i feel my heart speed up at her harsh words,"D-die? Why the hell would you want to die!" I stare at her hazel eyes and i can tell there's a battle going on in her head,"Maddie...you need to tell me the truth...please just don't lie."

"I didn't"t...don't want to die..but in order to keep you alive...I just..well...I have to" I try to make sense of her words but I can't think of a logical reason on why she would possibly have to kill herself.

"I don't understand, why would u try to kill yourself?"

"If I don't do it...then he will" She stands up from the couch and walks into the kitchen with me close on her heals.

"What the hell do you mean?! Maddie, who is he!" She stares at the stream of water coming from the faucet. "Maddie! What the hell is this guy! Fucking tell me!"

She jumps from the loudness of my voice and slowly looks up at me. "I can't tell you or-or me might.."

"Maddie what, spit it out!"

"he'll fucking kill you and Zayn and Louis and Kasie and Naill and every other fucking person I care about! Hell I tried to tell Rachel and then he ran in with a knife stabbing everyone in the room! So that's why Harry, at least I'm going to die with purpose."

"and whats that"

"keeping you alive."

"Fine, but just a m one more thing...why would you try and kill yourself?" My voice cracks as i say the four letter word and i look forward to see her cringe at the sound.

"Because, if I'm not here then I'll have no one to burden, I won't have to make anyone hate me and I won't have to be killed the way he want's me to be. If I'm not here to help my friends and I'm not happy...then honestly why be here at all?"

"So you like...suicidal?"

"For good reason."

"I don't care what the reason is, and i don't care how hard it is. I can't let you go that easily that quickly" I watch a tear fall from hr beautiful, now bright red, face. I tiptoe over to her and engulf her in a hug, she snuggles her head in close to me and closes her eyes, letting out her emotion freely. I walk her over to th couch where we hold each other tight.