Tw/Cw:
Violence?,Manipulation,Mentions of Suicide,Suicide Ideation,Death,Panic attacks? Intrusive Thoughts,Swear words-
Rocky start since this doesn't have a script-
I swear that it gets better,Believe me-
[I fucking don't remember what I wrote and thats just enough evidence this is shit]
(Honestly just skip to the next chapter/chapter 2 if it's posted- it's better. Trust me this chapter is shit-)
(I'm sorry if he's out of character,I don't watch Tubbo's lore often-)
As the sun rose in the horizon, there is always something that feels off when you just exiled your childhood bestfriend but it's for the nation right?
Tubbo's Pov
Why can't I do anything right?,I exiled my bestfriend,Childhood bestfriend he burned George's house it should be fair right?
It's right for the nation.
...
Why does it feel wrong?,Why am I siding with Dream- no why did I exile him?
It's only temporary until he's..
He's....Until what?
This feels wrong..Why does it feel wrong?
Why do I feel guilty,I mean..I know why but..
I'm the president of L'manberg now I should be more responsible, and I did what I had to do for this nation.
Yea..i feel so guilty I want to apologise but..I'm to busy...
Tubbo sighs as he starts organizes his pile paperwork,Why was there a pile of paperwork anyways? Isn't he to young- actually youth doesn't give you privilages here so why does it matter anymore? Their teenagers anyways it's fine.
Plus,Fundy was 9
(I honestly don't know if it's cannon-)
in his first war what excuse does he have? He is older than fundy...why was he thinking this again?
The window was open and a warm gentle breeze blows through his hair
Tubbo perked up and looked at the window,
"When was that window open?..."
he sighs and gets up and walks towards the open window And closes it
Atleast he has friends,Like Tommy- Wait no no- not Tommy- no wait their still friends right?-
Whatever...He just hopes Tommy is alright.
He's not like Schaltt
And he never will be
(Switch of Pov's cause I can't do sh|t about Tubbo_ because I haven't seen his perspective and also because right now there's no electricity,welp)
Tommyinnit's Pov
Everything just feels so dull,But that's fine.
The world just haves colors and texture that's how it feels lively.
But why now? Why now does it feel dull? There's no reason for the world to feel so lifeless.
I'm just being dramatic now aye?
How long has it been since the day..the accident?- Ok I'm really out of it now, how could I forget?..Well I Definetly forgot it now.
How long was he supposed to be here anyway.
I grieved before,I burned things before-
BUT when it's George..that colorblind Mother fucker,the sleeping beauty of this Damn server.
I get exiled?
(The first time Tommy joined and killed George he got 'exiled' aswell- Did history repeat?- well it rhymed atleast- but that wasn't lore anyways-)
I grieved SapNap,And Dream helped me.
Aren't they friends? Or is it different when someone simps for another? Seems like it.
Why is he thinking about this again? This is weird he never thinks about the wrong doings he did,Why now? Why suddenly now has he thought about everything he did?
EVERYTHING he did has led to this?
It isn't surprising but it does hurt,Both mentally and Physically.
Everytime Dream explodes his progress to smithereens,Everytime Dream blows up his stuff in a hole.
He gets hurt,and it doesn't help when Dream punishes him by constantly opening up his wounds when he does a mistake,causing new wounds aswell..losing so much blood he made mistakes so often,You could see cuts,bruises,scratches,and scars.
YOU ARE READING
It's Not Your Fault,When I Did This To Myself.
FanfictionTommy,Oh how he was content with his life,He was oh so grateful. To bad in life, there's consequences. And he did one to many choices that led him where he is now. Oh how drastically he changed,More mature,More quiet..It's pathetic. He's apathetic...
