Back In Time

Back In Time: Chapter Two

EDITED: Chapter Two:

Sirius led me around for several minutes, and I began to wonder if he actually had any idea where he was taking me or if he was leading me around blindly.  The tree that was always next to the lake came into view, as well as a boy who sat under it with his nosed buried in a book.  

We continued walking towards him, stopping as we were just a couple of feet away.  He didn't look too different, his hair was still black and hung low, and his nose was still crooked but the only thing that was wrong with this whole thing was that my father was my age.  

"Snivellus, someone wants to talk to you."  

"Don't call him that!"  I slapped Sirius in the back of the head before realizing what I did.  "S-sorry." I was so used to doing that when I was around my best friends, Fred and George, that hitting someone upside the head just came naturally to me now. I stared down at my feet, waiting to see if he would strike back but he didn't.  I looked back up at him, but he was already walking away.

"Can I help you with something?"  His voice was still the same as I remembered it, just younger sounding and not quite as heartless.  I could feel my eyes fill up with tears but I quickly blinked them away, knowing how much my father disliked it when someone cried.  

"I was told to come and find you."  I attempted to think of a simple way to explain to him what had happened to me, but nothing came to mind.

"By whom?"

"You."  I figured straightforward and to the point would work best, though there is always the chance that he wouldn't believe me.  "You sent me here, to this different year and told me to find you.  I'm hoping you could explain what is happening to me."  

"I sent you?  I suppose that means the spell works then."  My father smirked slightly before turning back to me.  "What's your name, girl?"  

This would be the hardest part, would he believe me if I told him the truth?  Would he even want anything to do with me after I told him who I was, what I was to him?  Or would he reject me?

"Spencer.  Spencer Snape."

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Of course, he didn't believe me.  We were the same age, after all, and the moment I told him who I was, I could see that in his eyes he thought I was nothing more than a liar, and so he got up and stalked off.  I stayed standing underneath the tree, feeling slightly hollow and constantly having to swallow my own tears so that I wouldn't burst out crying.  I knew I was stronger than this but, honestly, I just wanted my dad.  Sure he was cold and emotionless, but he was also safety and stability.  Right at that moment, I had neither of those things and I craved them more than anything.  

Sinking down to the ground, I immediately pulled my legs up to my chest, wrapped my arms around them and laid my chin onto of my knees.  Sitting this way had become a habit, whenever I was upset about something I did this in a desperate attempt to hold myself together not that it ever truly did any good.  

The sun slowly sank, turning the sky a very beautiful reddish-pink color, with streaks of orange and I was absorbed in the beauty.  At least, I was until someone sat next to me, knocking me out of my thoughts and concentration.

"I take it the meeting with Snivi-Severus didn't go very well?"  I recognized Sirius's voice without having to turn around to look at him.  For several minutes, I didn't bother to answer him nor did he press for the answers that I wasn't ready to give.  

"No.  I have to go find somewhere to stay.  G'bye Sirius, thanks for taking me to him and sorry for hitting you earlier.."  I walked off, not really paying attention to where I was going.  It was too late now to go and speak to Professor Dumbledore so I had nowhere to stay, but I figured it would be relatively easy to find some place either in the Forbidden Forest or possibly in Hogsmeade somewhere.  It couldn't be too hard simply finding a nice place to spend a single night, muggles go camping all the time so how difficult could it be?

As I made my way into the forest, I kept my eyes open for a hollow tree but couldn't find any without going in too deep, which I was scared to do...I didn't want to get lost, after all.  However, I was too tired to keep looking so I simply sat under a rather large tree, leaning my back against it and closing my eyes.  

Sleep wouldn't come to me, of course, I couldn't stop myself from shivering from the cold but I was much too exhausted to actually get up and try to find someplace warmer so I sat there, staring into the absolute darkness and all I could do was think about my father and his younger self.  This time as I thought of my father and the safe feeling that he always surrounded me with, I couldn't stop the tears that fell from my eyes.

"Daddy...I miss you."