Always with you (Dreamnapfound)

Chapter 1

C/W - Sexual themes/mentions, and some dark thoughts but nothing terrible

Dreams POV

   I'd never be able to think about being with only one person ever again, and I don't think I'd ever want to be with anyone other than those two. They were always together, and I was almost always dragged along as a third wheel. My heart ached at the sight of them walking around the museum with their hands together. Or wishing I could join in as they took stupid couples photos at restaurants.

   Currently, I sat in my desk chair watching as they curled up on my bed, best they could while we played minecraft together. It had been maybe 10 minutes and they were too caught up with messing with each other to notice I'd stopped playing. It was too hard with their constant flirting.

   "Hey! What the fuck Sapnap! That was my dog!"

   Nick smiled, placing a kiss on George's cheek, "I'm sorry, he just got in my way. Maybe if you sat him down so he didn't get in the way of me fighting it wouldn't have happened."

   "He wasn't anywhere near you! And all you were doing was killing a damn cow! You knew exactly what you were doing!" I watched George try to pull away from his boyfriend, who held him back and looked at me, "Dream! My Dream. Come save me!"

   I felt my face burn at his words, my Dream, but Sapnap ruined it by growling, "Don't you fucking dare. He's mine Clay."

   “I don’t know Sap, you’ve been pretty mean to him lately, so you might want to watch out. I’d be so much nicer, A fine boy like George deserves someone better.”

   He scoffs, “As if. I treat George like a fucking princess. And I give him better dick than you could.”

   “Gross. But are you sure? All the girls you’ve ever been with say otherwise.”

   I watch as a coy smile takes over George's face, “Yeah Sappy, I think I’ll have to agree with them. Plus I’ve heard Dream is pretty good in bed. If he's gonna be nicer to me and give me more in bed, maybe I will have to leave you for him.”

   “Georgie!.” Sapnap loses grip on the brunette for a moment, causing him to slip free and make his way to me. I feel my cheeks warm up when George climbs into my lap and wraps his arms around my neck. 

   “Sap, he's already better than you. Dream is so big.” George grabs one of my hands, pulling it up to compare it to his. “These hands could ruin me.”

   I cough at his words, trying not to let the image of him falling apart under my touch invade my thoughts. Luckily Sapnap lets out another jealous growl immediately, breaking me free from any wandering thoughts, and crosses the room to take George from my grip. The lack of warmth was a little disappointing, but this way I could easily hide myself if needed.

   “It’s my job to tear you apart George.” The dark blush continues to deepen at Sapnaps possessive tone. I’d never heard him talk like that before. It would be satisfying to knock the dominance from him, or even better, to have it directed at me. “Stay away from what's mine Dream. You may be my best friend but I’m not afraid to take you out.”

   I let out an embarrassingly loud wheeze, “Take me out? If I steal George from you, you’re going to take me on a date? Such a gentleman. I'd love to have dinner with you.”

   “You know that's not what I meant, who’d want to take you out? I’m gonna beat you up idiot.”

   I stood up from my chair just to hover over the two boys in front of me, “Sapnap, “I'm like a whole foot taller than you, and twice your size! I could easily take you on.”

   “Sure you could. But George is mine. Aren’t you baby?”

   “I’m not sure, you killed my dog. Plus Dreams right, he's a lot bigger, he could protect me a lot easier.”

   I look away when Sapnap moves to bite at George's neck, it's hard to ignore the sound that comes from the brunette. How was Sapnap so calm about doing this in my room?

   “God you’re such a brat George. Do I need to remind you who you belong to?”

   I make a fake gagging sound, to hopefully change the subject, “Nick! We’ve talked about this. Jokes are fine, but please I swear, don’t get sexual when I’m around. It’s weird.”

   “Are you sure Dreamy?” He sets George down and takes a few steps towards me, grabbing my shirt and pulling me down to his level. “I was gonna invite you to join, just to show Georgie how much better I am. But if you don’t want to, that's fine too.”

   “I- Sap- that's not… What the fuck?”

   He laughs, bringing his lips to my ear, “You’re quite flustered Dream. Is it because of me, or because of George? Maybe both”

   I take a deep breath, collecting my thoughts. I didn't want to let this affect me. Nick was only joking and if he wasn’t, it meant nothing more than sex. That's not what I wanted, at least not in the long run.

   So I pull away from his grip and speak, “You can keep your relationship to yourselves actually. Seems like letting me join in would only confuse poor George even more.”

   I wasn’t wrong. George was standing there watching us, a deep red blush covering his neck and face.

   “Right,” he sounded a bit disappointed, demeanor changing quickly, “George and I need some alone time anyway. I’ve got a lesson to teach him after all.

   Nick grabbed his boyfriend's hand and led him out of my room. The abrupt departure left me confused as I sunk back into my chair. My ear buds looked welcoming on my desk and I put them in to drown out any sounds, either from my best friends or if my parents called for me. I needed to clear my head from what just happened.

   I knew it had all been a joke, Sapnap made those jokes a lot. Sure he was never as serious about it, but it was just the heat of the moment. I couldn't deny though, the thought of being able to join them was inviting, but I never let my mind wander there before and I wasn't going to do it now.

   Maybe I was a freak anyway, in love with my best friends? Most people couldn't even find a single person to care about them, yet here I was, pining for two people who would never return the feelings. I'd heard of polyamory before, and even looked into it after figuring out my feelings. There was absolutely nothing wrong with it, other people have had these feelings, so why did it feel wrong for me to be this way?

   I sighed and tried to disappear further into the chair at my desk. I didn't need to be having these thoughts now, it was too early into the evening. 

   The PC in front of me switched to its Screensaver in the time I'd forgotten about it. Staring back at me were the smiling faces of George, Sapnap and myself from one of our adventures to the beach this summer. Instead of the dark thoughts threatening my mind, I let myself sink into the memory as I logged back in and decided to work on some homework.