Loyal Love (Rewritten)

Chapter 30

'' kyungsoo "

'' kyungsoo ! "

I blinked tiredly as seungsoos voice rang through the house, waking me up from having dozed off. Drenched Clothes were still laying in my hands from where I sat outside in front of the buckets of water.

The washing machine was still not working and I was left having wash clothes by hand. In the past this chore was exhausting enough but given how I was now it nearly felt impossible. It robbed me of all energy, energy I usually struggled to have anyway, specially if i had just cleaned the house and done different chores.

I shivered as the wind past by, nearly knocking over the basket of laundrey over from where he'd stood inbetween my feet.

'' KYUNGSOO "

I sighed, closing my eyes for a moment before at least I turned my head to glance into the house and put the clothes down.

My hands felt heavy as I fixed the rolled up sleeves and shock the water off before entering the house again.
It was hard keeping focus on school. It was hard keeping focus on anything even at work. These days it felt like all I could think of was when I could catch sleep or just take a seat and rest.

Sometimes my mind was tired enough to drift off into other worlds I wouldnt remember and once I would return I was left disoriented and confused, jongin would now and then help me realize what situation I was in but In school I'd forget what subject I had after dozing off, what exercises to do or what homework we had. Most of my days were accompanied by confusion and the pressure of figuring it out as fast as possible specially at work, Eujin depended on me for it afterall.

'' I was sorting these clothes out "
Seungsoo mumbled as i arrrived by his room silently and had stopped by the frame of his open door, glancing onto his back while he still rummaged through clothings.

He threw a tshirt at me and i swung it over my arm before the next one followed.
'' stand straight! The fuck is up with you?"  He briefly glanced at with with irritated eyes and I straightened myself.

He threw another pair of pants of at me before a jacket and then a couple of pullovers. Until I was having all hands full. It were only clothes but I felt my arm tremble little at the weight and I adjusted my hold as it started hurting.

Seungsoo hummed in thought, pulling another oversized pullover out and lifting it up infront of himself to glance over.
It made me look at it aswell. It was light blue, it looked thick and comfortable, big but the color was nice. A bittwersweet feeling filled my chest, it had the same colour as my suit at the ball.

Little butterflies awoke in my stomach when I thought back to the day. Whenever I remembered it I wondered if jongin ever did aswell.

He sure seems to stick around me evrr since the day I got the job at krystals coffee.
Every now and then He'd even pop up by my locker just to say hi, pretending it was a casual encounter, like I had been on his way when I knew my locker was only on his path to class on fridays any other day walking by me wouldve been a detour. I sometimes wondnered if it was ok or if i should be telling him I knew and he didnt need to do this but a part of me enjoyed it. A part of me looked forward to it becsuse everyday it felt like he made sure we'd see each other at least once even if it was just for a moment.
It made me hate the weekends all the more.

'' the fuck are you smiling about ?"
In an instant.. here I was back to reality and I looked at seungsoo who stood suddenly closer to me. I was surprised myself, I hadnt realized I started smiling at hus pullover like a dumbed. It was just a color afterall and I hadnt realized seungsoo coming closer.