You May Be Changing Me, But I'm Also Changing You ~Tom Riddle Love Story~

What the Hell is Happening to Me?

I forced my eyelids open. Today’s been a really long day and I’m almost too tired to eat. Professor Slughorn kept me after class for about two hours to try and convince me to join his little collector’s club. I asked if Zach was in it too, but he said no and that Zach wasn’t the right type of person to be in it. He was so hooked on me being part of it, I eventually gave in just so I could leave.
  “You okay, Trin?” Zach asked me.
  My eyes eased closed as I nodded. I just want to crawl into bed and sleep all weekend with nobody to bother me.
  I felt Riley nudge me and shook myself awake.
  Zach grinned, “Party tonight in the room of requirement, little sis. Now’s not a good time to be tired.”
  I frowned despite my exhaustion, “You know how I feel about that, Zach. I’m not going.”
   His friends and even Natalie sounded disappointed.
  “Come on, Trin,” Natalie begged. “Go with us.”
  I began to wake up more, “I told Zach from that day mom and dad told me I’m coming here that I wouldn’t take part in his parties.”
  “Not even one drink?” Sterling asked.
  I shook my head, standing up from the table, “No.”
  I walked off and all of Zach’s little buddies called out after me. I ignored their pleas and left the great hall. All I want is some peace and quiet to rest. I wandered aimlessly down to the dungeons, still half asleep.
  I went into my dorm and changed into my pajamas. Natalie came in too, but she changed out of her school robes and into something dressier.
  “Are you sure you don’t want to come?” She asked again.
  I waved my hand, “I’m sure. Go have fun.”
  She walked towards the door, but turned back to me looking unsure. I brushed my hair without looking at her, knowing she left from the soft click of the door latching. I paced around the dorm for maybe half an hour, suddenly growing restless. Eventually I couldn’t stand it anymore and I left my dorm to relax in the common room. I know nobody will bother me since the entire house is out to the room of requirement and will probably be out the entire night. I curled up into a ball, snuggling into the couch in front of the fireplace. The heat of the dancing fire soaked to my bones, easing my restlessness and making me sleepy. I was just starting to doze when the faint sound of the common room door opening and closing reached my ears. I figured it was someone coming back from Zach’s party. More than likely too drunk to remember where their dorm is. I listened as the soft steps came closer, stopping near me.
  “You would be here.”
  Hearing his voice made me uneasy. In more ways than one.
  I swallowed back my surprise, “Of course. Why are you here? Shouldn’t you be at my brother’s party?”
  He chuckled, “Why would I be there if you’re here?”
  My eyes flew open and I leaned my head up. Tom stood beside me with his arms behind his back like usual. The firelight glimmering in his dark eyes as he grinned at me.
  I tried not to stutter, “Either way, Zach will try and kill you.”
  Tom raised an eyebrow, his grin widening, “Perhaps. So, where should I be? In his sight or away from him?”
  My body started shaking from nervousness and I tried pressing further into the cushion of the emerald green couch, “Away from him of course, but...”
  I lost my train of thought as Tom sat on the floor in front of me. His eyes burning into my own from about half a foot away.
  “Please finish your sentence,” He purred, resting his hand on the couch and eying me.
  I squirmed uncomfortably, holding a pillow up to my face, “But you need to stay away from me too.”
  He chuckled and leaned back a bit, “But I don’t need to if Zach’s not around. Do I?”
  I’m not sure how to respond to that. If I say “no,” he’ll keep approaching me. Maybe even stronger than he is now. If I say “yes,” he’ll turn it on me with some kind of loophole. I can’t win.
  He tilted his head slightly, “Well?”
  I shook my head, hiding my face, “No...”
  Tom leaned closer to me, “That’s what I thought.”
  Please go away. Please go away. I’m tired of fighting this. Just go away and leave me alone. Ignore me, hate me, and come nowhere near me. Just anything to make this easier for me to live my life. Each day you’re making me want you more, but it’s forbidden. Leave me in a peace of mind and go without a fight. This is nothing but a game. I want you, but I cannot have you. It’s best if you go and never discover what I’m hiding.
  “Trinity?”
  I broke out from my thoughts and uncovered my face. Tom watching me with a hint of concern.
  “What?” I responded. Refusing to show any emotion.
  He sat up straight, “If everything okay?”
  I figured it’s time to be somewhat honest, “No. Nothing is okay. Damn it, Tom. Why can’t you leave me alone? My brother is having his perverted party friends following me around twenty-four seven because of you. I know who you are and your little attempts at hiding it is not working. I want to be able to wander the halls without the need to look over my shoulder every ten seconds. You’re confusing me with these approaches almost every night. I know you don’t mean anything from it, so why do you try? Is it because I’m new? Do you think that because it hasn’t happened to me before, I won’t know when I’m being played with? Please, for everyone’s sake, just leave me alone.”
  I choked back tears as I spoke. It hurts more than I expected it to, but it’s for the best. I can have a normal school life without being surveilled and I won’t be stuck with the drama of dating when I’m not allowed to. Especially since my brother hates him.
  I didn’t give him the chance to answer. I just turned and ran to my dormitory without another word. I know everything he didn’t wasn’t real. It was just lies, but they were beautiful lies and I fell for them anyway. I entered my dorm and slammed the door after me. Walking up to my mirror and peering at my reflection. Tears stained my cheeks and pain glistened in my eyes. I swallowed hard to force back more tears. I did the one thing I never meant to do. The one thing I’m forbidden to do. I sighed and wiped away the salty tears from my face. The truth I can no longer deny. I fell madly in love with Tom Marvolo Riddle.
*Tom’s Point of View*
  I can hear my heart shattering as Trinity ran off to the dormitories. How could even she think that? Why would she-
  I winced as a severe pressure pressed inside my head. The heartache melting as though it never existed. Please no. I can’t go back to that...
  Who needs her?! She’s nothing but a distraction for my future goals. I don’t have time for this nonsense. I’m more than happy to leave her alone. I don’t have time for people like her. If I want to become the most powerful wizard, I need to cut away all dead weight. What was I thinking? I made myself vulnerable and I shouldn’t do that. I hopped onto the couch and laid down. Nothing will stop my ambitions.
  “What do you want?!” She snapped fearfully.
  I chuckled, running my fingertips along her jaw, tracing down her throat and to her collarbone. She made it too easy, “You.”
  I shook my head at the memory. The pain of my broken heart flooding back.
  “Trinity, I’m sorry,” I whispered, “Please don’t make me leave you.”
  She’s more important than anything. My goals mean nothing if I don’t have her. I tried so hard to stay strong, but a single tear escaped my eye. I wiped it away and looked at the dampness on my finger. The physical proof of my pain.
  Get a hold of yourself! You’re Tom Marvolo Riddle. You’re a rock and you don’t cry. You’re not weak and nobody on this planet can make you.
  I shook the thoughts away again and tried to sleep. I started to doze off but one thing gnawed at me. What the hell is wrong with me?