Megan's pov:
The paparazzi followed my every move as if I was a wild animal on the loose. Some of the articles talked about how skinny I was becoming or how I looked 'upset'. I was so tired of it.
Work was the same. Paper, meetings and all of that shit. I changed everything, my employers and the board of directors, our investments. I stuck to the plan, why let my personal life affect my work life?
I walked through my apartment door, already tired from the day I've had. Everyday felt the same and that didn't help. I took off my heels and my bra and plonked myself on the bed.
Throughout the whole week, Dock kept texting me, asking me if I was alright or if I needed anything. Earlier, him, Damien and Tim all bought grocery for me without me knowing. I thanked them but I really wanted nothing to do with them.
I know eventually I'll have to tell everyone the truth about me and I'll have to talk to Jason but I just don't know where to start.
For some reason, I pulled up Jason's number on my phone.
Don't fucking talk to him.
I hesitantly hit the 'delete contact' button. There. Gone. Forever. There should be no reason for me to talk to him.
I changed into my sports bra and shorts. I took a blanket out with me and sat out in the balcony and just sighed.
The breeze let me feel a bit colder but luckily, the blanket shielded me. I sat out staring out to this Godforsaken city. Somedays, I just want to jump off this apartment complex and be done with it all.
I'm just..so tired.
Everything had been replaying in my head these days, the trauma. And I keep asking myself, what did I do to deserve this. I never harmed anyone. Yet they kill my mother, strip me from my home and move me to the spotlight. There, I would be seen as James Black's spoiled daughter.
I've heard that, 'you can't love someone unless you love yourself.' shit. I don't know to believe it or not.
Every single time I see myself In the mirror, I become ashamed. Ashamed of the woman I've become. Ashamed of how I didn't even try to fight what they did to me. My mother did not raise me like this. She trained me to fight. And I let her down.
Everyone has either disappointed me or left me. God, I don't even see my mother in my dreams anymore.
I'm so alone.
I have no one.
I'll give the world my final performance before closing the curtains for good.
I don't plan on dying, but if it does happen, so be it. I'm ready.
There is nothing to live for.
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RomanceAfter the events of Domino, Jason sees no other choice to stop Megan- and he'll go to great lengths to do so. Even if it means ruining their relationship.