Love Story ⤿ Chenji

15.

     - Jisung

After the party I didn't speak to Chenle, I really wanted to tell him that I was sorry and that me and Jeno holding hands meant nothing, but I didn't. When it became Monday I waited for him, both breaks, hoping that he would come but knowing that he wouldn't

It was Wednesday before Renjun ended up coming to sit with me

"so how has your time alone been" he asked and I rolled my eyes

"terrible" he laughed

"have you had your time to think" he said and I frowned

"think about what" he rolled his eyes

"think about how stupid you are and that you need to go and apologise to Chenle before it's too late" I sighed, he was right but I didn't want to admit that

"I think there's so point" he frowned

"You wanted my advice on Friday and I gave it to you now I'm going to give you some more advice whether you like it or not" I laughed

"you've had a few days away from him so that should really give you the answers to your questions and I already know the answers so ask him out" I rolled my eyes

"who says I like him" Renjun laughed

"me, was I not clear enough" he said and I smiled

"It doesn't matter what my feelings are anymore I fucked up again" he rolled his eyes

"okay back to the advice Chenle likes you even the most blind oblivious dumbass could see that just tell him how you feel and tell him your sorry" I frowned, maybe that would work 

"but I'm not even sure about my feelings for him I don't know if I like him or if it's just a stupid crush" he sighed

"yeah I'm all out of advice when it comes to that the best I can say is at a certain point you just know what you feel" he said

"how did you know you liked Jaemin" I asked and he frowned

"well we've been dating for a year now and we met four years ago so I think it all started around then" he said

"Mark was the first person I met when I moved here and he introduced me to his friends Jaemin and Donghyuck me and Jaemin didn't really get along at first he was over affectionate and I hated affection" I laughed

"over time we became better friends and I got used to it and all was good until Chenle moved here I ended up becoming close to him and from what I learnt later on Jaemin was extremely jealous that's why it took him another year to ask me out" Renjun said and I laughed

"but back to your original question how did I know I liked Jaemin well there was this moment about one year before he asked me out where we were studying together and I was watching him play with this stupid pen and I don't know what happened but something just changed I started to like his affection more and more I wanted to be around him all the time and everything he did whether it annoyed me or not I found it endearing" 

"and then when he asked me on a date I just knew that I really liked him and I really wanted to date him" I sighed, Renjun's story seemed so perfect, so enviable 

"see now that seems simple why can't I have that" Renjun laughed and shook his head

"I think your missing the point I waited for Jaemin to ask me out and I found out that he was doing the same but eventually Mark pushed him to ask me out I'm doing the same because I don't want you to still be here in one year waiting for something that might happen" I frowned

"because I don't think you have a year you barely have time now" he said

"Renjun why are you smart" I said and he smiled and rolled his eyes

"I'll give you some time before I come back here and if you realise your decision before then you know where to find me" he said and stood up

"you weren't helpful you know that" I said and he laughed

"that's what you think now" he said and walked off

He always does this, says something that makes me question my entire life choices and then leaves

"What to do what to do" I muttered to myself

I grabbed my phone and searched up 'How do you know you like someone' and clicked on the first website

1. you find them funny even when they're not - I frowned, Chenle always makes me laugh

2. you talk to the, all the time - I did talk to him like everyday

3. Just about everything reminds you of them - well I mean not really I don't know

4. you answer their messages before everyone elses - I frowned, I did always answer his messages right away

5. you get butterflies when you see them - yes

6. you tease them a lot - also yes, but he teases me more

7. you know details about their life and they know details about yours - obviously is that not what friends do

8. you notice their features more when you're together - I frowned, of course I noticed his face he's beautiful 

9. you seek out their opinions and thoughts - well yeah but we're friends, is that not what friends do

10. You get annoyed when you see them with someone else - okay well yeah

"I don't like this website it's stupid" I muttered and turned off my phone

Do I really I have feelings for him? Is this more than a crush? Is Renjun right? I sighed and closed my eyes

"feelings are hard" I muttered

If I do have feelings for him then I shouldn't waste anymore time, I should just get the courage and potentially risk our entire friendship, which is kinda ruined already

I opened my phone and called Renjun, he answered straight away

"well you made your decision fast" he said

"let's say I do have feelings for him how would one go about doing this" I heard him laugh

"let's talk after school I'll help you with your plan" I nodded and said my goodbyes

I don't know if I made a good decision or not but I made it so I'm gonna stick with it

I like Zhong Chenle and I am going to ask him out

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