He's the one

Chapter 18

*LOUREN POV*

It's been a week and Lucas comes every day and after his practice ,I want to be honest I'm scared of getting closer to him i don't mean there something wrong with him he just to good for me and I don't deserve people like him in my life , I'm scared to ruin everything because I don't even do anything right, I'm scared I will trust the wrong person again.

Not like he will like someone like me look at me look at him his life is perfect I'm just something small of it , I'm scared if I will get used to him he will left me because I'm
Hundred percent sure that he think of me as a friend.

So I decided to cut everything off it's the best for everyone.

I wake up and wear my clothes mom jeans and a top with a hoodie , l let my hair down ,and go to school .

When I get to my first class I see Lucas laying on his desk with his hood on I sit on my table and start playing with my fingers, I don't know how to tell him, i see his head raised up he looked at me and smile "hi" i stare at him for a bit "hi"
And looked back my book.

"Hey is something wrong" I was walking to the cafeteria and Lucas behind,I stopped and looked at him "you don't have to come today" i said "you don't have to come at all" i said looking at my feet "what.... Why?!" He asked looking so sad
Making me feel bad for doing this "it's just better this way"I said looking around "im sorry" i said whispering , I walked away from the cafeteria to my locker, I pulled my book and get out of this fucking school.

*LUCAS POV*

Everything was going well why did she want to get away.

If that's what she wants then okay I will respect it.

I really like her like I never really liked someone , and I wasn't planning on to like someone after my mom death all l felt is hate for everyone around me and I really miss her ,but Louren makes me fall to her by just a look ,when I first met her I thought she was like those girls who hock up with so many boys, so I was sure I will hock up with her, but now everything different when I first see the scar on her hand I know she different in so many things ,and I know that behind this beautiful face so many secrets and painful things.

Now in this time after all the things that happened with us together I just can't imagine her standing alone or worst like bugging with someone else I can't stand the idea.

I just don't know what to do I really need my mom now i need an advice.

Next day we all sitting in the cafeteria eating ,actually Louren is playing with her food ,i can't even hear a breath from here, someone from behind taps my shoulder I turned around And see a tall girl with blonde hair looking at me "what do you want" just my normal self "you know you really my type.." sighing turning around my eyes find hers she looked back at her food.

*LOUREN POV*

I can't be jealous after finishing everything with my bare hands,not like anyone care about who I am to him , he's attractive and evey girl wants him so , who am I to stop it .

"What about giving me your number" Ava said from behind him ,what ever worst that you Ava who's asking him , I'm still looking at my food, "Ava don't" Olivia said "just shut the fuck up and leave me alone" Lucas deep voice said "what... you don't have to be rude you know" Ava said putting her hands on her hips "but I will see later im not done with you" she said going to the others.

I got home and do my homework and go to the gym I didn't see Lucas, probably at the practice, why do I even care...

I got home take my shower And go to bed .