Fingers Entwined (Verloc x Bobby)

Dreams

Verloc had fallen asleep alone. Morris was filing paperwork in the other room. The day was cold out and the  grey haired man was wrapped in blankets. He had tears running down his cheeks.

He opened his eyes and screamed in fear. Morris nearly fell out of his chair as he rushed into the room. "ANTON?!" The Constable picked him up ever so gently and Verloc clung to him. "What happened?" Morris spoke softly. "I-Im horrible! I- I've put s-so many in danger... I've hurt so many people..." He choked on his tears and shut his eyes tightly. "That's just how it goes sometimes. Sometimes we just do things and we have to accept what happens next." Morris spoke ever so softly to the scared man in his arms. "But I...I pushed so many away w- with my stupid fucking actions...I can't get them back..." Verloc choked out as tears rolled down his face. "No, you probably can't. But even so. Maybe you'll be back with them one day. Or maybe you'll never see them again. And that's ok. Sometimes we push the ones we love away by mistake and we can't reverse it." Morris sighed softly and looked at the window and saw the rain falling.

"But we still have to focus on getting better so we never have to do it again. We have to get better so we can do better." Morris took off his mask and set it on a table before sitting in the recliner with Verloc in his lap. "But I want them back..." Verloc whimpered out softly. "You may never get that. And you have to deal with it." "But I can't stop thinking about the good times!!! I can't just... forget them!! I get nightmares about them...I just... want them back..." Verloc buried his face into his constables chest. "Sometimes we need to just let it go. It's going to be hard. Because we focus on the good times. But if you truly want them back. Then you have to show to them that you can heal. You need to prove them wrong and that you aren't who you were. To cleanse the shitty side that they last saw." Morris smiled a bit and kissed him on the forehead. "But what if i try to go to them and they want nothing to do with me...?" Verloc clung onto the thick white coat. "Then.... you just have to accept it. Its going to be hard." "But I've got better!!! And i want them back!!" Verloc cried out frantically. "We just have to wait and see..."

"But I miss them..."