my real life story

a girl of 17 struggling for happiness

hello everyone, this is me Aditi from India and I'm here sharing my story, I'm just a 17 year old teenager struggling everyday to get happiness. I'll start from the beginning. so it's time when I was very little I was just 4 or years old. I have seen a lot of things happening.my dad has never been a good person to my mum,never, he always abused Hit her ,domestic violence is what he did. if you guys thinking that I am lying  it is my true story please believe it so back to the story that I have never seen them talking to each other nicely. I have a younger sister. later on we found out that my father had an affair with a women.unfortunately due to lack of evidences my mother was never able to to prove it but I knew he has an affair coz he's been so attached with one of his office colleagues and  due to this there has been constant fighting in my house. I saw my mother trying to put kerosene oil on her thinking she could burn herself but I stopped her.but now she's gone, she is gone forever I don't know how but my dad is so reluctant to get her back my dad thinks to separate not to divorce because it's India and in India a women gets to hear a lot of  curse words after a divorce. and she decided to walk away I have tried every time to contact her but she's ignoring me she is not ignoring me at whole but she's just not replying to my text and is not ready to come back and I am here stuck with my dad . i really want my mum back but the condition is there will be a proper separation  as soon as she finds The Separation paper my father will walk away he will be giving all the bills paying all the taxes as my mother is a housewife but my mum will be back with us in a new and different home but she is not ready to come back and my father is very reluctant in dropping his separation idea. he's just so stiff on this decision of him to be separated and my mum is not ready to come back. you guys, listening there please try to have give g me some advice what should I do now. please.