Forever with you [ Yangzhe x Junzhe ]

11. Confrontation

Zhang Zhehan hugging his pillow while play on his phone. He already sees GongJun salon dating Dilireba hot search. He knows it's just a marketing ploy, the promotional cp already started and it's not GongJun fault. But inside his heart,,

He can't help feeling disappointed, but does he have the right to be disappointed?

No, he should be happy if GongJun can move forward. It's maybe a sign to forget him, to accept the reality they didn't belong together anymore. Zhehan smile, remember his days with GongJun just like a summer dream. It's beautiful, romantic, fantastic, glamorous, but it didn't mean to be forever. He accepted that just maybe need some time to take it as a whole beautiful unforgettable memory.

Well, in this world nothing lasts forever actually. Everyone surrounds him is going as usual, still going to work, shoot, act, sing as usual as if nothing happened. And the sad truth is this world will always rotate as usual even though he's not there anymore. His own world has already stopped since August 13th.

GongJun path now shines brightly, maybe with some obstacles, but he has a great team to support him. He can't help feeling happy and envious when imagining GongJun as a successful actor in the near future. He is working hard for this, he deserved it. One day GongJun will forget him completely.

One belongs to a bright path, one belongs to a dark path. Maybe they don't belong together after all.

Zhehan was a little envious, why his path was always rough and hard, he always chops chop chop everywhere even at his peak popularity and now end up in a dark dead alley. He wants to walk beside him together in a bright and shiny path, for once he wants to walk leisurely with nothing to worry about.

Just for once..

Zhehan laughed hard to himself, maybe a bright, shiny, and glimmering path never meant to him.

Already a few times he wants to give up, take another path, maybe luck will reverse.

Like when he found golf when he lost basketball after his permanent leg injury.

But his happiness is acting on the scene, singing, and meet many people who support him.

Except he all his body numb and paralyzed forever. He didn't want to give up.

How? When? And where? This is another question.

Zhehan sighed, he didn't want to tangle to this nature of mind forever. Thinking like that only consumes his life's energy. One day the answer will come to him by itself. He glances at the clock on the wall. It's 3 pm. Yangyang should be on the way home from his endorsement shooting.

Never come to his mind that he will receive help from him. Sometimes Zhehan contemplating what is his intention to help him, Yangyang purpose never clear. He never knows what is that man wants from him. Sometimes he feels like his girlfriend, sometimes friend, and sometimes in between.

All of this will be simple if Yangyang said he just wants his body or want to use him as release, or maybe... love.

The last one is only happening in his head.

He has already used Yangyang rejection and 'straight' things since three years ago.

And now he is giving up, no more question, hope, expectation, or whatsoever. Just follow whatever that handsome man what to do if he want. Never questioned again his strange gesture, his hug, his kindness, his rejection, his mean words, his weird request, even he feelings weird, Zhehan doesn't care anymore whatever in that charming, handsome but annoying man mind.