Hypnotic | Vmin

Chapter 20

Jimin laid beside taemin his chest rises and fall back with his rising heartbeats, he massages taemin's hairs as he peacefully falls asleep resting his head on jimin's arm he smiled at his little boy who sleeps like an angel, but no matter how many times jimin denied it but he deep down knows taemin is just like his father, he reminds him of taehyung so much and whatever they had seven years ago, he's part of him and taehyung...

Speaking of taehyung, he's avoiding him for two days taehyung tries to talk to him but he walked away, he is afraid, afraid to repeat his mistake he knows spending every second with taehyung makes the feeling he buried inside of his heart comes alive, and with every moment passes he fell for him more,

And they weren't his intentions, he sighed deeply standing up, in attempt to avoid taehyung he's stuck in taemin's room it's the only place taehyung wouldn't say anything about them or their past so it's the safest place, he heard a knock on the door and he knew by that who is it. taehyung walked into the room with the glass of milk in his hand,

Jimin took a step to walked out of the room but taehyung held him from his wrist, he placed the milk on the side table and dragged jimin out of the room "leave me" jimin struggled in the tight grip taehyung didn't reply and took him in his room instead, he closed the door behind them and pinned jimin on the door, "I'm trying to talk to you and you are ignoring me" he gritted his teeth tightening his grip on jimins wrist that he pinned above his head,

Jimin didn't move nor he tried to remove himself he stood there quietly staring deeply at taehyung and for the first time someone's stare makes taehyung nervous, but he is too good to hide it, "jimin," he softly calls his name leaning down attaching their for foreheads he loses his grip on his wrist and slides his hands down on jimin's waist instead,

"Please talk to me," he breathed out giving chills to jimin's body but jimin backed away making the distance between him and taehyung "there's nothing to talk about, you were the one who told me to not talk to you ever.....what happened to that big ego of yours?" Jimin folds his arms on his chest

"I told you that because... You cheated on me and i-i was broken" taehyung licked his lips preventing himself from crying "it's always about you taehyung, isn't it? You were broken, you were hurt, you probably had your reasons but what about me? What about all the shit I've been through? when you left me"

"I didn't knew about it jiminie your mom... She told me you were cheating on me since the start and you are using me,"

"she showed me the photographs of you and some men.." Taehyung bites his lips and looks at jimin but he stared back at him blankly so he continued

"And then that day she told me to come to see it by myself because I didn't believe her first and... When I came to your house that day I saw you..." He gulped down couldn't find the courage to repeat that horrible day and the scene "you saw me what taehyung? Please continue I want to listen to what you saw that day" jimin scoffed

"I didn't believe it jimin but you were enjoying it you moaned.... and I couldn't contain myself seeing you with someone else, so I left" he tries to improve his point "I didn't hear you" he whispered jimin chuckled with the rolling tears on his face

"So you didn't hear me because you were so blind by your jealousy or whatever it was" he added, "no-no jimin I didn't do it only because of jealousy, you didn't meet me for weeks and lied to me that your father is home when he never stepped a foot in the town for three months you lied to me jimin, and then all of this... at that time it was all making sense, I think of every reason why would your mother lie to me? why would you be with those guys and after seeing all of this with my eyes how am I supposed to react?"

"I grew up seeing my mum being fooled by my father every day and somehow I saw her in myself and I didn't want to be her, I don't want to get hurt and betrayed" he explained as he looked down his guilt was killing him inside seeing jimin's face like that, he looked broken

jimin wipes his tears pushing taehyung far away from him, the boy pushed his weight on his heels preventing himself from falling on the cold hard ground

He stared at jimin not knowing what the other's intentions were by doing that "that was your side of the story right?" He asked putting every nerve of his to test by not crying "y-yes" taehyung agreed "now let me explain mine" jimin spoke digging his finger deep in his chest as the veins on his neck were visible

"Yes, I lied to you because I didn't want to be a burden on you with all my problems not because I was using you, every time I lied about my dad staying at my house was because she beat me and I waited for my wounds to heal, I thought you loved me so much to let me live with her knowing how much of a bitch she was"

"She forced me to do the things I never wanted. from wearing makeup to revealing clothes, and on my 17th birthday she gave me the biggest surprise by making me meet two guys twice my age in that outfit, you know how I felt, when they looked at me with their disgusting eyes, I was about to lose my virginity by getting raped and then I pretend to enjoy it and when I got a chance I ran away from that hell to my heaven" he scoffed

"Now let me tell you how much misery I went through after you left me all alone, I wasn't enjoying it he was forcing himself on me, I begged him but he didn't listen to me he slapped me and raped me, I begged the lady you believed but she let all of this happened to me"

"And when you saw me liking it I was pretending, it was too naive of me to think I will get a chance to run away again I wanted to get free from all of that, I decided if I ran away that day I won't ever look back I will live my life happily with you, I wanted to run into your arms so bad..."

"But then I saw my home leaving me alone in that hell, there was nowhere for me to run to I was left alone!" he dropped down on his knees, and taehyung followed him, crying quietly his chest tightened and it amkes it hard to breathe, and then he explained everything further to taehyung, he clenched his chest as he finished his dark painful past, his heart hurt like he was living all those moments again,

A sob slipped through taehyung's mouth he held jimin's hand and buried his face into them crying and sobbing "I-i'm sorry jiminie I didn't know about it, I'm so sorry I was so fucking stupid, I was an idiot to believe them" he cries in his palms and jimin let him cry,

Taehyung looked up at jimin and put his hands on his chest not letting go of his hands afraid to let them go again, "please jimin I know I was so wrong and you went through a lot because of me but baby, please I can't... I can't handle this it hurts a lot I loved you I always love you and I let that happened to you I could've saved you I..." He broke into sobs again

"It's too late... it's too late tae to apologize" jimin softly said "don't say this please, I wouldn't be able to forgive myself" taehyung begged and cupped jimin's face, he removes his hands from his face and stands up his warm tears still falling on the cold ground from his eyes "I'm already ruined taehyung and you can't fix me now" with that he left "please jimin"

He cries alone just like he did when he left jimin he was in pain but it was nothing in front of what jimin was going through, he cursed himself and blamed himself for not talking to jimin for cutting him off from his life but his fears and anger got the best of him at that time he wasn't thinking straight he was thinking from someone else's brain and it was his father's,

But jimin was right it's too late, it's too late to blame anyone or to do anything, he can't make things like they were before. he had jimin, he had the best life but he ruined it all with his own hands, and now there's nothing he can do to fix it, except for crying and regretting his every life decision

Maybe it was his karma of killing all those innocent people and making them suffer but he didn't choose this life, it was written in his fate to suffer and make people suffer but he was too naive to change it, and he let his fate snatched his happiness, his jimin away from him and he just sat back and watch it all go away, leaving that day was the worst decision of his life and he will regret it till his last breath.