MISGUIDED 2 || Clarence NYC & August Alsina

10

Jayda
The night continued but the energy was strained. We ate and talked to Ms. Pauline and Travis for a while before I told Aug I wasn't feeling good.

I had anxiety after our discussion outside. I knew what he meant earlier and I didn't want anyone to get hurt.

In the car I wanted to breakdown immediately. I had to put on a nice face for his family but that's not how I felt. He entered the car and grabbed my hand which I pulled away.

"Jayda." He sighed

"August if you go after Clarence...I'm going to leave you."

My decision had nothing to do with Black's well being it was all about August. He was so protective over me and I appreciated that but he had no regard for himself. What if he went after Black and he ended up dead or he actually kills him and goes to jail forever? These things concerned me more than getting revenge.

"You defending tha nigga?" He was caught off guard by my statement

"Risking your safety and freedom isn't worth revenge. We need you safe."

He never responded he just began driving.
At home I stripped down out of my outfit and poured Aug his green juice. I sat it in front of him before walking back towards the room.

"Thank you." I knew by his low tone he was upset but it was either seek revenge and come home to an empty house or let it go.

I had other things to worry about anyway. The baby shower was in less than a week and I've been in constant contact with the planner.

Jordan had been helping out as well because he knew the gender but we don't. We gave him our name choices for both genders and we'll know based off the decor at the shower.

After a while of laying in bed alone I called for August. I've gotten so use to sleeping him.

He stood at the threshold as I waved him over.

"You coming to bed?"

"Not right now."

He retreated back into the living room. I was irritated but before long I was sleep. I woke up around 4 am to pee and August still hadn't got in the bed.

After relieving myself I went to the couch where he still sat awake.

"Do we have a problem?"

"Wha?"

August
Jayda was waiting for an answer before walking back into the room and shutting the door. I followed after her but it was locked too.

"Jayda. Open up."

"Stay on the couch like you were."

"Jayda I'll break this ho in."
The doorknob jiggled then opened.

"I'm going home then. You need some time to yourself."

"Did I say that?"

"You didn't have to."

"Jayda lay down. I'm coming in hea right now....and I'm not asking you."

I did want to sit and think but that's why I was sitting in the living room alone. I didn't need Jayda to leave to think, what she said earlier pissed me off a little but I knew she was right. I was tryna calm down to where I wasn't taking my frustrations out of her. I know she extra sensitive now a days.

She laid down with her back to me but I pulled her on her back so I could hold her belly and look at her.

"You was right earlier. I knew something was going on back then and I didn't stop it. I partly feel responsible, so a nigga ain't feeling right."

"It's painful to keep having to relive it. I wish everyone would let it go. I know you're trying to protect me but I don't want to be dragged back to that part of my life."

"I know mama. I'm sorry."
She looked at me awaiting a kiss.

"I love you August."

"I love you too."

Over the next few days Jayda been stressing about the baby shower. A nigga been trying to preserve his energy for it. The treatments and after effects have became more bearable but I didn't want to risk Jayda thinking I wasn't feeling the event because of the fatigue.

I debated everyday on telling her about the cancer just incase shit go left. But I get an update on it soon and I've been praying on it. I haven't told anyone like I planned too. Every time I think about telling them the moment don't feel right.

Jayda been cooking all the time good healthy food for a nigga. After Jordan told her I needed to start eating healthy she been making it a thing to feed me properly. And a nigga ain't talking about no salads just good wholesome eating.

We even went to a farmers market together a few times. Jayda say they produce is the best so we make it an event.

"Babe you ready?"

"You ready?"
I eyed her. She kept asking if I was ready but fixing her dress over her belly constantly. We were on the way to the baby shower.

Jayda been stressing her outfit all day. She got it made a few weeks ago and she swore she gained weight. She looked perfect to me, the more her belly grew the more she glowed. When she slept I'd stare at her, she was perfect in my eyes.

"You good mama let's go. We gone be late to our own shit."

"Okay, okay."

Arriving to the location was hectic. You'd think it was a club, Jordan had valet and security at the door. I ain't know too much about the planning, Jayda did most of it but she looked shocked too.

"You knew about this?"

"I was bout to ask you tha same thing."
We shared a laugh before walking in. Everyone clapped and said they congrats. Jayda had the biggest smile on her face, everything looked perfect.

There was a lil hallway made of balloons before the full room. The balloons were white but the room was decorated royal blue.

"August it's a boy!" It didn't click to me what the colors meant till Jayda started jumping up and down next to me.

Jayda
I was beyond excited to finally find out the gender of the baby. I had been holding off on buying so much stuff and now I could go crazy.

August and I were holding each other with huge smiles in our faces. I was smiling so hard my cheeks were hurting.

"Congrats." Jordan walked over the Clarence

"Aug let me talk to you." Jordan waved over Aug before eyeing Clarence. I didn't expect him to come. They walked off not to far away.

"How you and your man holding up?"

"Things are good. Having a baby and all." I laughed a bit

"Yeah I just found that out. Heard you were pregnant not too long ago, you know the streets talk. But I mean with his medical shit. Are you okay?" I halfway smiled and eyed him
"The cancer Jayda. How is everything going with August having cancer? Jordan ain't called me with an update yet, I'm worried about y'all. I know you might not think I'm genuine but I don't want the nigga to die."

August
I was watching Jayda the whole time as Jordan was telling me that he didn't invite Black and the nigga just showed up. I still ain't trust him around her.

They chatted back and forth before she cocked her head back and he tried to hug her.

"Hold on." I wasn't listening to Jordan anymore I was so focused on Jayda.
"Ain't none of that."

"August." He said my first name which caught me off guard.
"I didn't know."

Jayda had latched onto me bawling crying. I knew immediately what had happened. My heart sank.