MISGUIDED 2 || Clarence NYC & August Alsina

14

Jayda
"I know."

After 2 days of being at my moms house and filling her in on the small details I had about everything she was just as upset as I was. She had asked several times to call Jordan but I declined. I was over the whole big brother thing at this point.

"Do you want to go back?"

"I want the full story before I decide but I'm sure they won't tell me."

"So?"
She held out her hand awaiting an answer

"Mom I'm pregnant."

"I don't mean leave the man. I mean have your own space, you know I don't mind having you home but your a big girl. You know I have that penthouse still. It's not being rented this very second."

"How would he feel about that? I don't want to feel like we're separating."
I placed my head back not allowing the tears to fall. I didn't want to think about leaving August at all. It wasn't the plan, I was just tired of the indirect lying

Despite both situations having very little to do with me I always end up hurt somehow. Physically or other.

"Baby, take the keys and see how you like it. If not come back here, it's all up to you."
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Jordan
"Anything?"

"They haven't went through."

"Her phone off or she blocked us?"

"She blocked us."
August let out a frustrated growl

"Whea is she?"

"She don't wanna see us. She told me that last time I saw her."

"She pregnant. She need me there. Shit, I wanna be there."

"She know she pregnant that's how I know she'll be back soon."

After dropping off Grant August had came and told me about the weekend. Despite being tweaked out about Jayda he had a decent time playing dad. Grant calls him August for right now but it's new for both of them so it works out. Nikki dropped him off to Travis and picked him up from Travis so they didn't see each other at all the entire time.

Every now and again when going over the weekend he'd crack a smile. Aug was enjoying being a dad. He also asked me to back off the Nikki shit for right now while he talked to a lawyer and did things 'the right way'.

As we finished up the phone rang.

"Jordan"

"Yes ma'am"

"Y'all got my baby crying again."
I cleared my throat before placing her on speaker. I motioned to August to keep quiet.

"Misunderstanding."

"What could be a misunderstanding about August having a secret child? I could whip your asses."

"It's not like that."

"How is it?"

"He didn't know he had a child. August just got out of prison and there was no child when he went."

"So my baby's lying? Jordan I find that hard to believe and you let her sit through getting that boys name tattooed on her knowing he had a child. What is that about?"
August cocked his head back, I still wanted the tattoo to be a surprise to him

"Yes ma'am. I couldn't apologize before she left."

"We'll she's getting an apartment on her own since you can no longer protect her."
She hung up the phone before I could speak

"She got my name tatted that night?"

"She wanted to surprise you."
I shrugged
"She gone move out. Let her."

"What? Nah. I ain't letting my woman, my pregnant woman live on her own. Fuck no."

Jayda
"I got it mom."

"I want you to be comfortable."
She fixed the new comforter over the penthouse bed. I took her advice and would keep this place for myself for a while.
"Don't let them boys come here. Leave this space untouched like a safe house."

I nodded. She was right, I needed a place that didn't remind me of them for this exact reason.

"Mom what do I do?"

"Awe baby."
She embraced me tightly
"Only time will tell. I don't have the answers to this one."

Everything didn't make sense. August had an entire child and he wasn't a baby so he's been around. How could August have a child and not leave up under me for days at a time?

The thought made me sick. Was August a deadbeat to that little boy?

After lightly setting up the penthouse she drove me over to Jordan's to get my car.

"I'm going to sit right here."
She parked her car next to mine

I'm sure August was here because he had my keys. Just as I approached the door he was walking out.

He grabbed me pulling me into him tightly. He smiled down at me but I didn't return it. I just looked up at him then back to my mom.

"You leaving?"

"Yeah. Came for my keys and clothes."

"You leaving me?"
"I just found out about the kid."

"August you had the chance to tell me. Things would've been different if you just came to me."

"So you leaving me?"

"I don't know." I said after a small while of silence

"You pregnant Jayda. I needa be there for it. You holding my son."

"I know...just give me some time."

"Time alone in an apartment by yourself? Fuck that." He raised his voice a little bit

"August." I placed my hand on his chest before walking away from him into the house. He followed after me into my room. When I went to August's house I had to leave a lot of stuff here so I could grab clothes from both homes.

"Jayda at least tell me whea you going? She said you got an apartment."

"No. It's one of her older properties. You been withholding information, it's my time not to tell you some things."

"Jayda this ain't tit for tat. I'm tryna not hurt your feelings."

"Like you did with the cancer? If you would've dropped dead then what?" I spoke quickly, he was pissing me off
"August I'm grown. I don't need no training wheels on serious matters and a few days ago in that doctors office you said you wouldn't keep anymore secrets but you were holding one right then! Jordan said you've known for weeks so when we're you going to tell your pregnant woman about another child you had?"
"Exactly. You weren't going to tell me so cut the shit. Between the 3 of yall I'm fucking tired. It's a never ending up keep of drama."

The air in the room was strained and stressful. I was stressed out about almost everything. Each and every day August left the house I would worry about him and if he was going to come back. That is part of the reason I wanted to live with him just to watch him and keep him home and out the streets as many days as I could. That is also part of the reason I was so excited for our son. I was hoping he would draw August from the streets like a magnet. This is partly why it was so difficult to decide to stay at the penthouse. I would no longer be able to watch him and he wouldn't be coming home to me. I also have him blocked in my phone because I'm hurt and stubborn.

He sat against the bed with his head lowered looking at me.

"I'll tell you."

"Keep it. Your ass might be lying."
He laughed slightly

"You still ain't living at that bitch alone. I'm not asking you either Jayda. When you drop my son you still ain't leaving so pack ya lil bag and go cool off but be home tonight. I love you mama." He kissed my cheeks before leaving the room