my body crumbles
beneath it's own weight
i wish nothing more
than to become a pile of bones
this epidermis has become a prison cell
tied with thorns
i crave to paint those crimson stripes
my skin is suffocating with a song
my chest is heavy with grime and guilt shameful lumps of hatred
tied to damaged ribs
a core full of sad meals i regret
churning with every decimal of a calorie
as the pungent veins in my pale skin
scream for release
the eyes i once called mine
are glazed with desperation
and salivate with jealousy
glued to every deformity
taped back to the face attached
and still always
coveting what's not theirs