"Why do you hate your dad?" (vent)

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by avdlrss

by avdlrss

Hey, i like you! ill open up!

first of all, he has not done so much for me, he has done so much to me, from sexual harassment, to putting me in uncomfortable situations, touching me, yelling at me if I did something wrong. "is that all? your lucky you still have your dad with you"

want more? here, he gets mad at me for the dumbest shit, need an example?
got mad at me because i said i felt sad and said "you have everything you want, you have a house, you have a family, yet your still sad!?"
got mad at me because my sister was yelling at me. my SISTER was the one yelling at me. yet I. ME. was the one who got in trouble because apparently i have no respect for the older people, like how tf you want me to respect her if she doesent even respect me
got mad at me because i asked to download a free animation app, because apparently my only interest should be piano.

im already stressed enough with school and now hes stressing me even more, and i dont get bad grades because im always on my phone, its because i fucking have adhd and its hard to focus, but you think i just want attention so you dont wanna get me checked, what a bitch "yea but some people have it harder than you"

for an 11 year old. all this. for an 11 year old. just a few months after my birthday. also got mad at me because he forced me to sing and dance and i didnt wanna

"hes just looking out for you" HOW IS FUCKING YELLING AT ME GONNA DISCIPLINE ME? IT JUST COMPLETELY AFFECTED MY MENTAL HEALTH. anytime soon hes gonna start physically abusing me, i know it. as if verbal abuse, sexual harassment and yelling at me for shit wasnt bad enough, he tried touching my private parts.

i hate him, i really do, i wish he died. "ive had worse tbh" can you stop!? ive literally changed for the worse, gained ptsd, has trauma, deals with adhd and him yelling at me. he asked me if i still wanted to do piano, i said no, and he enrolled me to year whatever of piano

"oof" will. you. shut. the. fuck. up.
how about you switch lives with me and see what its really like? none of my friends care, i even asked one of them if they'd be sad if i committed suicide and he said: "id be like: oh you died and just move on with my day, i wouldnt be sad tho LOL" when i told my other friend i wanted to die she said "oh lets just kill ourselves together LMAO"

"oh.." yes. ive been dealing with this since may. i have opened up to multiple people, you know what happened? they all betrayed me. so im left, with no friends, a terrible father, and an abusive home.

this is all i have bottled up, yes. all this. i have never really told anyone everything. this is all ive been through, since the past 4 months. just bottled up and i cant hide it anymore, i need people to understand. thank you for reading all this and stay safe, love y'all <3