Life After Pretty Little Liars

Chapter 25

It had been 3 days since I got back from the hospital and I was sitting in my room in complete darkness. I heard the laughter from the kids downstairs and I smiled weakly; at least they were having fun. I head Xavier cry and I got up to care for him. Once I picked him up, his crying stopped.
"Hey baby." I cooed to him. He smiled. He had just learned and I loved his smile. I carried him back to my room and sat down on the bed. Holding his hand that had grabbed onto my finger.
"Shh. Go back to sleep." I said stroking his hair.
He looked just like Ian with his brown wavy hair. My kids were growing up. Ariana would be turning 6 in a month and Cooper would turn 3 in May. I sighed. After this whole ordeal, I've been cooped up here drowning in sadness. The doctor that took care of me while I was in the hospital gave me pills to take so I could balance out again. They didn't seem to be working though. I still felt an overwhelming wave of sadness everyday. I found it hard to get out of bed and do my daily tasks. The worst part was the flashbacks and my brain deceiving me thinking that any male that came close to me was him. Ian was getting frustrated. I could tell he wanted to help but didn't know how. I was lost in my own thoughts. Nothing would ever get better. I might as well just leave. I heard footsteps come up the stairs.
"Hi mommy!" Ariana said cheerfully.
"Hi sweetheart." I said tiredly. I played with her hair when she spoke again.
"What's wrong?" She asked.
I couldn't tell her what was wrong. She is only 5 years old and would never understand.
"Nothing. Mommy's just tired." I said calmly. She nodded her head but I could tell she didn't believe me.
"Daddy says it's time for bed. Will you tuck me in?" She asked me.
"Sure." I smiled and got up from the bed with Xavier. She walked to her room and ran to her bed. I grabbed the covers and pulled them on her.
"Goodnight baby. See you tomorrow." I said kissing her forehead.
"Goodnight mommy." She sighed before I shut off her lights. Ian came up with Cooper in his arms. He fell asleep. We brought him to his room and set him down on the bed. Ian pulled the covers on him and kissed him goodnight. I did the same. We walked out of his room quietly and went to Xavier's room. I sat him down in his crib and walked out of his room. Ian was waiting for me in our room.
"Are you okay Lucy?" He asked softly. I didn't answer.
"Talk to me Luc." He pleaded with me. I stayed quiet. Then he did something unexpected. He lifted me up into the bathroom and started a bath for me. He took my clothes off and sighed. I hadn't realized how skinny I had gotten. You could see my ribs and my cheekbones. My hair was greasy and I had dirt underneath my fingernails. Ian grabbed my hand and led me to the bath. He helped me step into the bathtub. The warm water felt good against my skin. Ian grabbed a bar of soap and started to wash me. I curled up into a ball letting him take control. He rubbed the soap into my skin and washed it off. I felt him wash my hair, his hands rubbing his hands on my scalp. I felt myself relax into the water. For once I felt calm, like nothing could hurt me. That was a great moment for me. Ian washed everything off my body and grabbed a towel.
"Stand up." He said calmly. I did what I was told. He wrapped the towel around my body and helped me out of the tub. I sat down on the tub counter and let him dress me. He slowly put my pajamas on and grabbed the brush to comb my hair. Once he was done, he lead me to the bed and sat me down. I climbed underneath the covers and motioned Ian to come to me. He climbed on the other side of the bed and pressed his body against mine.
"Thank you." I whispered. He just buried his face in my shoulder. I turned around so I was looking at his face. Ian smiled at me but it was a sad smile.
"What's wrong?" I asked grabbing his face.
"I want to take care of you. I can't watch you do this to yourself." he choked out. I smiled.
"You are helping me. You may not think so but you are." I said.
He grabbed my face and slowly kissed me. It had been weeks since we did this and it felt good. I kissed back. After a few seconds we broke apart.
"Go to sleep." He said quietly. I looked at him with uncertainty in my eyes.
"I'll be here. Now go to sleep." He assured me. I closed my eyes and cuddled up to his body. It wasn't long before I was drifting off. The last thing I heard him say was I love you. For the first time I slept peacefully.
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OMG the finale guys! I was speechless! Jason has a twin named Charles but I don't think that's his real name. We know he's good with hacking and computers and has brown hair. I think his obsessed with Aria and that's how it all started. I want to hear your theories so comment below!
-Katie