I'm getting hungry. I go downstairs. She was cooking. "Oh hi."
"What's for dinner?"
"Your dad and I are eating red beans and rice."
"What about me?"
"I'm not your mother, sorry."
"Okay." I go upstairs. I'm going to Ariana's house. I hate being here. I go back down. "Where are you going?"
"Where are my keys?"
"Where are you going?"
"Ariana's. Now where are my keys?"
"Who's Ariana?"
"My girlfriend. Keys? I'm starving here."
"Did you ask me if you could go?"
"You're not my mom so I don't have to ask you for anything."
"Okay but prepare to get your own dinner every night because as long as I'm disrespected, I won't cook for you."
"Okay, food probably nasty anyway." She threw my keys. "I want you back home by-."
"I'm not coming back."
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"How was it?"
"She's doing too much. I rather be here."
"Mm. Then stay. Who cares what she does?"
"True." She deeply kissed me. "Mm. Fruity." I laughed. "How did I land you? Like it had to be some angel to give you to me. You perfect."
"I was straight so."
"You were I remember. Now you gay as shit." She pulled me on top of her. We made out. I love her.
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We walk into school together. We stopped at my class. "I'll see you.. um. What class we have together?"
"Third."
"Oh yeah then lunch. Alright." She kissed me and opened the door. I went in. "Hello peaches."
"Hey." I sat down. I'm too early. Nobody here. "Miss I'm going to the bathroom."
"Okay." I walk out. I catch up with Ariana. "Why you out of class?"
"It's boring. Nobody in there."
"Let's go to the bathroom."
"Alright."
"What you wanna get for lunch by the way?"
"I don't know. Just whatever."
"Alright."
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"Ariana!"
"Fuck I'll be back."
"Okay." She walked out. It's been a few days of being here. I love being with Ariana. The door opened and my mom was there. "What's going on?"
"You gotta go home."
"I'm not going." Police came in. "We're going home Shanice."
"I'm not going."
"Shanice, you either come home with me or these nice policemen will have you spend a few nights with the inmates."
"Fine."
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"Shanice. I want to have a conversation about why you hate me so much. What did I do?"
"Let's start off with you choosing drugs over your own baby."
"I... Shanice...I was a drug addict and I accidentally got pregnant with you so, I had to give you away. I didn't have to but as a drug addict that would be the obvious choice. Especially if I didn't want a baby. You should understand that first. I took it in more and I thought about like, you don't need to be around random grown men. I don't want you growing up with a bunch of drug dealers who could probably as soon as they get the chance rape you or kill you. Cause I know I won't be around. I would be somewhere else doing what I wanted not even thinking about my baby. You understand that?"
"Yeah, but how long have you been clean for?"
"About eleven years."
"And you're just back because Grandma died?"
"She didn't want me to see you. Well when you were five she didn't want me to see you. She wanted me to be back before then so I could just come back and be your mom and you would warm up to me but after five she didn't want me to come because you were in kindergarten and she thought you would have too much on your mind."
"In kindergarten? How much would I have on my mind in kindergarten?"
"I don't know. It would probably be a little overwhelming for you at that age to start living with someone you didn't know."
"It's overwhelming now. I'm too far from my friends and my girlfriend. Like you're trying to ruin my life."
"Shanice...I'm the only one you have left. I don't want you to ruin your life. When I was told I had custody of you, I was so excited and you're not what I expected but I'm just glad to finally see my daughter. You're what's missing from me. I need you or I will go insane." What does she mean by that? "I was so happy to see you and the feeling wasn't mutual but I love you."
"Okay." After that insane thing I don't know what to say. We made it to the house. I haven't talked to her husband yet. I get out of the car. "Sweetheart, I think it would be easier if you went to the school down here.x
"No. I can't leave my friends." She looked back at me. "But it'll be easier."
"I don't care, I'm not leaving my friends."
"You have to. I don't want you sneaking away. So you go to school here now. I enroll you tomorrow morning.
"I'm not going." We went inside. I went straight to my room. I'm just gonna nap.
