I remember my Mother says when I was young, she wished I was not born at all.
My Father says, I'm good-for-nothing whenever he's angry.
I didn't know something hurts more than a brother telling you're better of to die.
Some people might find it overreacting and I should have known better.
But, I'm a growing child.
Am I supposed to feel, experience this things and understand that it's "normal"?
I never heard such words from my anties say these to their daughters.
I saw them rant, vent, and even hurt their child but not like this.
Am I the one wrong?
Am i?
Because I don't know what I am now.
I don't even know who I am.
Lately, I don't know anymore.
I'm tired of everything.
I really am.
Am I really childish?
Whenever I try to not pay attention on what I feel my Mom would just go and tell me. I am wrong
.
Then, if I become enthusiastic they'll say I'm too enthusiastic in the situation that I am in,
Now, I'm lost. what do I do?
Maybe,
they're right?
Maybe, my brother is right.
I should be gone.
I should be.
Eveything is better that way.
I guess.
They'll live better with me gone.
Right?
YOU ARE READING
Look At Me
AcakI had to let it out, because it's burning my from the inside. I can't just sleep and do nothing about it. I'm helpless, and this is my refuge.