Destined to be his Wife

Chapter 47 - It's Going To Be Okay

"Calm down, Tang. Please, just breathe, and calm down. Stop and look at me." Linlin caught hold of TangShi who was racing from one room to another in the apartment, searching for YuZhi and despairing over the lack of him. She had called Linlin to come get her when she dressed and raced out of the hotel after him and couldn't find him anywhere around. Freaking out and in a neighborhood she wasn't familiar with and no idea what she should do. She had abandoned Rong in his beaten state without a second thought and ran after YuZhi.

Linlin clung to her upper arm to restrain her, hugging her in with a struggle, and smoothed away her hair that was sticking to her clammy face in a bid to soother her. Her heart breaking for seeing her this way.

"Take a second to be still and take a deep breath. This isn't going to help you."

"He won't answer my calls. He's not at Leng group or home, he's not with ZhengLi either. I don't know where he is." TangShi wailed in desperation, her words rushed and through labored breaths, as close to hysteria as possible without an all-out mental breakdown. Her mind a mess, her face saturated with a waterfall of nonstop tears and shame and running make up, and she was sniffing loudly as her nose ran freely. Clogged up from the downpour she couldn't control so her voice was a croaky mumble. Her heart was torn up and shredded as though her insides were bleeding shards of glass.

"He might be with ZhengLi. You called him right after you lost him. He would have been driving and ZhengLi's cell is off now, so I can't check. He won't be randomly driving around. He's a big boy who's capable of taking care of himself."

"Let's go there. Let's go find him." TangShi begged with wide eyes and furrowed brows, catching her friends arm wistfully to plead with Linlin to help her make this better. She seemed like a broken child searching for their parent in this moment and Linlin had to swallow a lump in her throat that was choking her up. Knowing this was futile.

"No, he needs space and time. Let him go sort his head out and then you can talk it out. Once he cools down and he's not so crazy messed up, then we can sit down and try and explain this." Linlin was trying to be supportive and optimistic but on the brief details TangShi gave her she had no idea how to fix this. YuZhi believed she slept with another man after a drunken night out, whether TangShi remembered or not. To him, she had betrayed their love and it was over. He was a stubborn guy with high self-esteem who would never take back a cheating girlfriend.

"I want to take it back. Undo it and go back to yesterday. I want to never do that stupid show or go for dinner." TangShi wailed, raking her fingers through her hair, rubbing her scalp in agitation, as a new wave of sobs hit and churned up her gut.

"Come on. Let's get you showered and changed, and I'll make you something to eat. Focus on small tasks right now and pulling yourself together. Give him time, it's going to be okay once everyone calms down. We all need time." Linlin was aching for her best friend, hating seeing her this distraught and irrational. At a loss with how to care for her or make this better. She had never seen her like this, ever.

"What did I do? How could I do that to him? To us?" TangShi couldn't shake the heavy cloak of despair and guilt and no matter how many times she tried to recall the day before, it was always lost at the same point of dinner. It's like her memory ended mid desert and then there was nothing until she woke up in the hotel. That scene was etched on her soul like a black scar, and she couldn't get around what she must have done.

"I know you, baby girl; I can't imagine you doing anything like this. Not if you waited twenty odd years to have sex at all. It's suss as hell and that Rong Cai, jerk, there's something about him." Linlin wasn't fully convinced that TangShi had a drunken one-night stand, but she had no proof while her best friend seemed confused and resigned to the fact she had done wrong.