Tender Kisses😩💋

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Alaysia Lawrence, 19

"Be good girl!" I told Remi

"I will" she kissed my cheek before running in her room

"Thank you" Zunique Remi's mom said (Zu-nique)

"Mhm it's no problem" I said

"How you been doing?" She asked

"Good" I mumbled she eyed me

I shrugged "come in!" She said

"Whats been going on?" She asked

"I've been getting flashbacks! And Jaheem cheated on me with Nayomi" I said holding my tears back

"Baby come here" she said pulling my in her arms

"And she's pregnant" I laughed then started crying

"Fuck him!"

"That's why I cremated him and spit in his ashes"

"Don't let him bring you out your character you know that's not even you" she said

"No it's really fuck him and her they both knew I been through they both promised to never hurt me and be here for me if they knew they wasn't gon keep it they shouldn't of made it like what was the point in lying?" I cried

"Then these flashbacks like I'm tired of living I'm tired of this shit being normal for me I just wish that shit never happened and Heem was the only thing making me feel better about it cause I thought that maybe a man can love me" I cried

"You don't need a man to love you you strong!" She said

"I still want a man to love me I need validation from a man I need to feel loved by a man no matter how much I don't want to and I hate that about me" I cried lowly

"Baby your a rape victim your own father hurt you of corse your gonna want a man to love you one of the men you loved and trusted most and would never expect to do something like that did that's it's ok it's just your trauma start loving yourself more have a relationship with yourself need your own validation!"

I nodded "start doing little shit everyday that will make you feel better about yourself so shot for you it's just as simple as cooking yourself your favorite meal or running yourself a bath just shit to cheer yourself up" I nodded

"And you know I'm always here if you need to talk I know you don't like bothering your brothers and it's just weird talking to them in general I won't judge you or tell them any of your business!" I nodded

"Thank you so much" I hugged her

"Anytime y'all really like the only people I got"

"I'm finna head out I fed her before we came here and yea" I looked up seeing if it was anything else I needed to tell her

"She also said she wants to come again next week I said it was up to you and she made a friend!"

"Friend?"

"Uhh A5 friend Ace got a daughter they kinda clicked at worlds of fun" she nodded