Tender Kisses😩💋

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Alaysia, 19

I woke up from a nightmare wiping the sweat off my forehead as I rose up from my well interrupted slumber

My breathing was heavy and my heart was racing I felt so fragile and weak at the moment felling ashamed I quickly tried to forget about the dream which was really just flashbacks

Turning my phone on blinded by the light the time read 2:15am I didn't want to call Ahmad so I tried Keenan knowing he's probably sleep

It rung through I just hung up cause he's sleep I called A5

"What lay im sleep?" He grumbled

"Nevermind" I spoke quietly hanging up I called A6

"Yea?"

"I wake you up?"

"No I can't sleep wassup?"

"I just had a nightmare"

"You alone?"

"Yes"

"Ight go unlock yo door" he told me I heard rustling in the background

"You ok?" He asked me

"No"

"Ok Ima get some snacks and I'll be there you need anything before I come?"

"No I just don't wanna be alone"

"Ima try to hurry up"

"K I love you"

"I love you too" he told me I hung up and started crying again thinking about it

My daddy used to be my favorite person my bestfriend he always treated me different than the boys he was strict with them I just thought it was cause they're boys but I guess not

The first time he ever touched me was when I was 15 I was growing into my body small waist well proportioned ass and boobs I quickly lost my shape after from not eating and being depressed

Ahmad had got in a argument with him and him and Keenan left I came home from school and took a nap like always and woke up to my dad in my room rubbing my body I quickly told him to stop and that that shit was weird and cussed him out

He apologized and said he was "tripping" and asked me not to tell anyone I didn't tell anyone mainly becomes talking about it or even thinking about it made me uncomfortable

Then Keenan and Ahmad moved out a year later he did it again I went off on him again for him to threaten me if I told anyone about anything I cussed him out he then proceeded to rape me and brainwash me while doing it and left me on the bed naked after shit like that went on until I got the courage to tell my brothers

I lost hella weight after and just stopped loving myself

My brothers have definitely been there with me every step of the way I love that about them they're very supportive of my mental health

"Lay I know you ain't in here crying" A6 said coming in my room

"Shut up"