Marina One Shots

Babies

This is what I WISH to happen with everything after Season 5 Episode 2 because I hate how they left Marina in this episode!

"Maya, I don't think I set a good example for having kids." Ben explained. "I may not have had a biological child with Miranda, but Tuck and Joey happen to be two of my favorite people in the world. You think you are content right now, and you are working your way back up the ranks in SFD, but when you get there, at what cost will it be? Will Carina be there? You will find that it will get very lonely if you don't get out of your own head. I have seen the way you are with kids at calls or at events, you are great with them." Ben pauses.

"You have to ask yourself if you are willing to give up on the rest of your life with Carina over wanting to make it to the top? I get that you're on a track, but where does it end? What's the point of making it to the finish line if you're going to end up alone anyway. No one to celebrate with other than us. Maya, I am not saying this to force you to have a child with Carina, but to take a step back and evaluate the pros and cons of it." Ben finishes.

"I'm scared I'll be like my dad. He abused me, mentally and emotionally. And then the day he physically hurt me, on the scene of my job, I am terrified that I will end up like him. And Carina doesn't deserve that. I don't deserve Carina after what I did. And then she forgave me, I feel like I trapped her into a marriage. I'm just terrified that I won't be good at it and I snap like he did at me." Maya tells Ben as they are sitting in the lounge. 

"You have grown over the years that I have known you, Maya. You have grown into someone I deeply respect and care about. Carina loves you and she would do anything for you and to make you happy, but her desire to have a child is not going to go away. You are not going to be like your father because you are already addressing the fact that you are terrified to. You will work to make sure you are not like him. You and Carina deserve happiness so something has to give. You either make bold decisions and look after your family or you let Carina go. She doesn't deserve to be strung along, hoping that one day you change your mind. Take a step back and think if you still want to be this dedicated to your work in 10 years or do you want to find your happiness on the soccer field or baseball field raising your kids. Becoming a parent is like wearing your heart on the outside of your body or having your heart walk around on the outside of your body, I can tell you, for me, it's better than any accolade or recognition that only having a career will bring. Eyes forward is no longer your mantra, you gave that up when you met Carina and I know you know that." Ben finishes. 

Before Maya can respond, Ben is called for Aid Car Response and runs out of the lounge.

"Maya, it's been 4 days. You haven't slept in 4 days because you aren't next to your wife. I need you to stop for a second and think about this. Why don't you want this? Your career is not an excuse. Are you so deep rooted in the fact that you want to make battalion chief before 40 that you are willing to throw away the love of your life? Maya, I'm not forcing you into anything, but I think you're doing this because your career at the moment matters more than your wife." Andy tells her best friend as they are sitting on the roof of the station. 

"That's not true." Maya defends. "Isn't it though? You are more occupied with moving up, that you are on the verge of ending a marriage that has barely started. Answer me this, is your career and moving up more important than Carina?" Andy asks. "No. And it never will be." Maya counters.

"Then you should have your answer. You won't be like your dad because first of all, I won't let you and second of all you are good at what you set your mind to. Any kid would be lucky to have a gold medal winning Olympian mom. If your only reason for not wanting a child is because of your job, then you need to talk a step back and then think about what you really want. Do you want to live a life of what ifs or live a life without your one true love because you couldn't figure out what you wanted? Or you figured out that having a baby will bring so much joy into your life that you finally take a step back from your career for your happiness. Think of it this way, does your happiness root in Carina or this line of work? Answer that question and you'll know what to do." Andy finishes.