𝐌𝐢𝐬𝐬 𝐘𝐎𝐔!

𝐀/𝐍 𝟏𝟎/𝟖

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TW: DEATH, MENTAL ILLNESS, CURSING, MENTION OF SENSORY OVERLOAD, WEIGHT LOSS, CRYING

THIS AUTHOR'S NOTE IS A BIT MORE SERIOUS THAN OTHERS

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Ahh yes, here comes the time I get so fucking insecure about every little thing.

Hi! So um...ᵘᵖᵈᵃᵗᵉˢ ʷⁱˡˡ ᵇᵉ ˢˡᵒʷᵉʳ

The 17th of October marks the 4 year anniversary of my grandma's death and I was never close to her but ya know it still hits hard on me. Even if I don't have the greatest relationship with my mom at the moment I want to be there for her and ya.

Also, I feel like I'm having a depression episode (I probably am, if I'm being honest) and my grades are getting worse and every little thing is ticking me off. I literally started crying yesterday about being so tired and then called myself a pussy and then acted like everything was fine.

And then, I'm getting sensory overload a lot and my anxiety is terrible I feel like everyone hates me and all that stuff. I'm kind of just scared to tell my parents and I didn't have therapy this week so it's kind of fuking me up.

I also started losing a showable-ish amount of weight, but like not in a good way if you catch my drift. Ya...

I also feel so pressured to act a certain way and be a certain way around my so-called friends. I mean they're nice to me and that's good but it's like indirect pressure. They tell me I'm so nice for giving them food and water and I kind of just to do because I know I'm replaceable and I don't want them to forget about me (also because I am seriously concerned about them since they forget to eat and drink water)

So I have a lot of things happening in my life and I feel like I can never catch up and it's like constantly putting up this front that everything is fine and that I'm okay but I'm not

I feel like crying now, and I'm sorry if this A/N was annoying or if I'm annoying. Hope you have a nice day and I'm really sorry that these updates are going to be slower

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