Adora one-shorts

Self hatred bl00d

TRIGGER WARNINGS:
Blood
Injury
Swearing
Sh (?)
(If there's anything I'm missing comment it)

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ADORA'S POV:

Just as I'm Getting out of my comfy bed. I can never sleep. Everyone knows that about me by now that I can never relax.

Catra thinks I'm asleep but all I could think about was how I've been so useless lately, not using shera for anything.

That should be a good thing right? Everyone happy and safe. But me? All I do is be lazy.

I walk to the bathroom opening the Crystal door handle and make my way in. I look at myself in the mirror and splash thes clean, cold water over my pale face.

I haven't had a good sleep in weeks or heck even years. I don't think I've ever had a good one actually. But who cares right?

I lean against the sink with my arms against the sides mumbling to myself.

"You little shit! Your ugly a-and worthless and weak!!"

Pointing at myself in the mirror I continue. "She-ra's better! I will never matter! Catra's lying to you!! She clearly doesn't love you! It's all a lie like your childhood!!! Why would anyone love you anyway. You can't even sleep for a few hours without having a nightmare or waking up still tired"

I look at my hands then back at the mirror at my face.

"Idiot..." I pause and wipe my hands over my eyes from the tears falling down my soft cheeks. "I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU! Why can't you be normal??! You can't relax or tell anyone how you bloody feel! You can't even tell your wife that your tired!!! You don't deserve them!" I put my hands to my neck. "Pathetic.."

There's a quiet noise coming from the bedroom. It's catra's but I ignore it.

"Adora?"

My breathing fastens and my hands come off my neck at I smash the mirror to pieces in front of me which makes my hands bleed but I don't stop.

"You pathetic little shit!!" All I can hear is imaginary laughs around me as I'm hyperventilating them.

"They're all laughing at you! Your so weak!! YOU SHOULD HAVE D1ED IN THE HEART OF ETHERIA!!" More tears fall.

Catra runs to the bathroom and her eyes widen. "Adora..?"

I can't hear her as I continue shouting at myself in the mirror.

Catra's frozen In fear and tries to say something but can't.

"YOU DON'T DESERVE TO BE HERE!" I smash the mirror harder "YOU USELESS SHIT! GET UP YOUR LAZY BITCH! GET THE FUCK UP! YOU SHOULD BE IN THE GYM TRAINING TILL YOUR BODY GIVES OUT! BUT INSTEAD YOUR HERE ALL USELESS! SHE TOLD YOU THAT YOU WOULD END UP LIKE THIS!" I'm talking about shadow weaver.

I smash my hand again and it's all gone numb.

"ADORA!!!"

My eyes glow whilst shards of glass fall onto the ground with every hit.

"ADORA STOP!"

They stop glowing and I look around to finally noticing Catra standing there.

"H-How long we're you there..?"

"Long enough."

I look down at my hands covered in red, wet blood. I stay quiet.

"What were you doing?"