Adora one-shorts

She'll never be pure again

Trigger warnings:
Self harm
Panic attack
Mental health issues in general
Self-doubt/overthinking(coming from someone who suffers from anxiety)
Eating disorder
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Adora shivers in sweat whilst laying in the brightmoon bathroom with the door locked. Blade in one hand and scars all over her thighs.

She just stare at the blood, not really caring that this could change everything if anyone found out.

The shera' princess of power fucking hurting herself on purpose.

She's the worst shera ever.

Her worth doesn't matter, only shera's does.

She just feels so tired. So so tired. And she can't do anything. She can't physically or mentally stop. Her brain never stops any minute of her fucking life instead of worrying about every little stupid thing.

What if the whole world ends and she can't stop it?

She cuts deeper in her skin feeling the pain to get worse but in a good way of course.

Because if she didn't enjoy this then why would she put herself through it?

From ever since the battle of brightmoon she can't fucking stop this habit.

The red scars all over her, it's so draining but makes her feel relaxed. Feeling numb inside.

She knows this isn't the best way to help her thoughts but she can't be bothered to find other ways. And who cares?

"Hey dummy, you okay in there?" Adora's girlfriend calls from outside the bathroom.

She feels everything around her spin

Fuck.

"Adora?"

"Huh? Oh yeah! I'm okay! Um.. I'm just- yeah I'm fine!" She stutters feeling the blood loss making her feel sick, not caring and continues to let herself bleed on the floor.

"You sure? You don't sound like your okay.."

"I'm fine Catra I'll be out in a minute"

"Alright well.. be out quick.."

Adora let's out a soft breath. She can't imagine seeing catras face if she knew what she does to herself.

The only people who knew her mental health is bad is Catra, glimmer and bow.

Catra because she's known her her whole life. She doesn't know she self harms tho no one does. She only knows her anxiety gets bad sometimes and she thinks of others more than herself even if it meant sacrificing her life and that she mentally and physically can't ever fall asleep without a nightmare.

Bow knows because he's seen it for himself. He's seen Adora at her worst - not eating or sleeping like at all. Being all reckless after her sword broke. But even he never knew how bad it gotten to her to her now even.

And glimmer knows as whenever she use to have nightmares when she first arrived to brightmoon she use to go to her and bow. They'd have a sleepover with her to help her sleep.

But other than that they knew absolutely nothing about what goes on inside her head.

And Catra knows that which is why she always tries to get Adora to open up and try repeating to her "that she deserves love too" that "she's more than shera" and "she's aloud to be vulnerable".

But Adora's Adora. She never listens.

Catra's having therapy sessions with Perfuma a lot, which really has been helping in a lot of ways. Adora's been happy that catra's being more open and catra's always said "you should tag along aswell it's not just me who needs help Adora."