A Love Story Like No Other

Part 13: Peace

Listen to Peace, before/whilst/after reading this

Taylor's POV
2 weeks later

It's been two weeks since I have done my last ovulation test and to be honest, I was not sure I would ever be ready to do another one again. I think I pinned a lot of hope on that last one. Too much hope probably. I think I was quite naive going into this, thinking I would get pregnant the first time round, but these last two weeks have been good for me. I've realised just how long this could take and I've started to accept this recently. Of course I just want to be holding a little baby in my arms right now, I would do anything to be in that moment, but I know now I just have to be patient and trust in love and life that my baby will be here soon.
So on this reflection, I have decided to do a test today because why shouldn't I? The longer I wait, the longer it is going to take for me to meet my baby and for me to feel the love all over again that I feel from my mother.
After I take the test I hand it to Joe. That was our routine before because I would become way too anxious waiting for the result so I give it to Joe and entertain myself with something on my phone and that way I don't cause myself an anxiety attack. I don't think that will happen anymore because I understand that it is going to happen when my body knows I am ready, but I don't want to take the chance of breaking our routine so on handing it to Joe, I open TikTok and aimlessly scroll through videos.
Then all of a sudden Joe starts laughing and shaking me with pure excitement and for a moment I have an almost out of body experience. It can't be positive, can it? There's no way.
"Oh my days Joe is it positive?" I say struggling to get the words out.
"Yes yes yes it is, it is, Taylor let's get to the clinic as soon as possible," he says lifting me into the air.
And in that moment I knew it was going to be ok. Even if it doesn't work this time, it will be ok, because I will always have Joe to be there for me in the hardest moments.
So, with this news, we ring the clinic and they tell us to come in straight away, which of course we do. We get there and with a newfound sense of hope we do the insemination and spend the rest of the night in this bubble of excitement. We also talk about what we will do if this is unsuccessful and we recognise that we are still at the beginning of one of the longest journeys we will probably ever go on. And we know it will be hard, but we have to think about the end, about the love and the life that will come of this journey, and with that we feel peace.
Several weeks later
Once again it is time to see if this round has been successful and I really don't know how to feel. Of course I want it to have worked but I am going into today with low expectations because I don't want to disappoint myself too much, like I did last time. But there is something different about this time. Something about it feels right and real and different. I can't really explain it and I realise I am probably just giving myself false hope but I truly believe this could be good news.
Joe and I walk into the office, after a bunch of tests and a whole bunch of waiting, hand in hand, ready for whatever is about to happen.
"Taylor, Joe," the doctor says, walking in, shutting the door behind her, "we've got the results of the tests," she says.
It's in this exact moment that time seems to stop completely. There is no noise, no movement, no nothing. It's like when you've been waiting for something for so long and it all seems to build up to one moment. This moment.
"I am ecstatic to tell you Taylor, you are pregnant,"
"Wait oh my god, really," I say, quickly realising I didn't mean to say it out loud and covering my mouth, all a little to late.
"Sorry I didn't mean it like that," I say but I see she is laughing and I know that she knows it was just from pure shock.
Then it starts to become real in my mind. I look at Joe and he is just beaming with excitement, and I burst into tears. Happy tears of course. It's almost like it just hits me in that moment and I lost all control of my emotions.
Joe pulls me into the biggest hug ever and I know that I have never been happier in my life.
"Congratulations you two, we've all been rooting for you here at the clinic. I'll just give you some more information regarding your pregnancy, because obviously this is just the beginning of a new chapter and this pregnancy is still high risk due to the nature of your condition," the doctor says and I try and listen as closely as I can above all of the excitement in the room to every piece of information so I can know the next stage.
Joe and I get home about 4pm and everything still seems so surreal. I am married to the best man in the world and now I am going to have his baby and we can finally have our family that we have been dreaming of for forever. We talk about everything that night from names, to nursery colour schemes to what our baby is going to be when they grow up. We get ahead of ourselves in a dream that feels as though it is going to become a reality. Our reality.
This feels like something I've waited for forever to achieve: peace.
This baby is our peace.

Hey everyone! Hope you enjoyed the chapter :) We're nearly at 3k views 😲!! Thank you for everyone who votes and comments, it really does mean a lot to me. Sorry it took so long to update, I've been really busy but I am getting into a routine so hopefully I'll be able to update more often! Also I am so excited for Red, and it's coming a week early which is really exciting! Hope everyone is doing ok, and as always let me know if you want a Joe POV soon and if you have any fun ideas for chapters and I'll be sure to try and include them at some point!