Why am I Alive

New Friend?!?!?

hey guys we have a contest winner:

Friend

Name- Emmi

Gender-Female

Related to- No one but is friends with carter

Likes- cutting, singing, drawing, dancing, spying on people.

dislikes-bullying (she is bullied) anyone who hurts her friends.

looks- tall, very skinny (anorexic), selfharms, purple hair with baby blue tips, waist length hair, xblue eyes, band shirts (bvb. sws. ptv. fir. bmth. etc...) jeans or leggings.

Thank you Emmirose1223

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*Carter*
"Well.... I'm a spy" before anyone could say anything a girl busted in and fell to the ground with a thud I instantly knew who it was one of my childhood friends with no parent. but I had to pretend I didn't know her luckily I changed my appearance so she won't recognize me. everyone just stared, but me i looked with horror, i slowly walked to her body and looked out the door she came in there stood one of my many least favorite people, Preston (A/N yep adding him just needed to) one of my ex boyfriends, yep you heard me right Ex. me and him dated but it was just a joke to get under my walls I built, well, now my walls are as I say bullet proof, hehehe. he ended up abusing me even more until I broke up with him before he could break up with me. so now I was just standing their looking at him frozen in place, black dots started to swarm my vision and I knew right then and there that I was going to have a panic attack, so I quickly started to run until he grabbed my wrist, of course me being not aware witch I should have been. God dammit Carter. I yelped, hopefully he'll think it's from being surprised. but just to my luck he looked at me with horror. Oh Shit.... so I bolted up to the room they gave me and locked the door and listened until I heard footsteps approaching me. SHIT....SHIT....SHIT.... fuck me. then the pounding and shouting for me to open the door started, i just tuned them out and went to the connected bathroom and decided that I need a punishment for letting them find out,but first I went to the mirror, lifted my shirt up and traced the TC cut into my skin I could still feel the sting from it, the doctor even said that if it gets hit/kicked in the right spot I would go through the whole thing like a flashback but more painful. Yay. then I walked to my door and reached up and felt for the cold blade. Gotcha. I pulled it down and looked at the dry blood on it, I didn't bother washing it off so I lifted up my fallen shirt and decided to draw something so I drew a heart nothing too difficult but something to make the blood ooze. once I got done with that the banging had stopped so I quietly wrapped my stomach and took a permanent marker and drew Die into my wrist I looked into my mirror and decided that I looked fat and puked up all the food I have eaten. Then I walked quietly walked out of my room and turned on my cameras and put my headset on to see what there planning, as I was looking I found them all outside my room trying to listen in on what I'm doing so I started to hymn so they thought I was busy and looked through the cameras pulling up their camera to the side and looked for the girl... Emmi I think was her name.... anyway I found her still in the same spot but awake and trembling, I need to do something so I looked on YouTube. still humming. and got a video of someone humming to a song .you can get anything on YouTube nowadays. so I played it and quietly opened my window and scaled down to the girl when I got to the front door I was still looking for Preston when I saw him passed out on the couch. THANK GOD.. and I finally found the girl so I whispered to her "hey come with me I can take you to my room you'll be protected" she slightly hesitated but eventually took up on my offer.. she followed me outside and I helped her scale up the house and when we both got into my room I made a 1 min sign and put my finger to my lips she quietly nodded and I went to my computer and kept the humming going and looked through the cameras, surprisingly, the guys were gone but I kept looking through the cameras till I found them in a group talking I looked at the girl and motioned her over, she did as said and came closer I waved to the computer and switched to my camera switching to a new humming thing and let her listen in on what was said...

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*A/N- hey guys finally updated sorry for taking so long my mom took my iPod away for nothin and then I had to go to my dads who had no internet. Yay. anyway hope you liked. luv ya all peace out.
-A