Our Sorrow Will End Here

CHAPTER 4

Came back

Lili's POV

I am fuming mad when we get back. I immediately called Somi to accompany Amara just for today.

My gut's telling me to get back to her. I know she'll end up staying there.

As soon as Somi arrived I explained everything, including amara's needs.

"I'm sorry for the disturbance Somi. I just needed to do something. I promise, I'll treat you lunch and buy you a man". Arrggghh this is not the time to joke around Lisa.

"No worries Lisa. And ewww I don't need a man". She laugh and and went to my room, where amara was currently sleeping.

As soon as I locked the door and gate, I immediately drove back to where I saw her.

It's not that far to my house.

I immediately parked and started  searching for her. There are lots of people cause it's weekend.

Damn, I hate crowded places. How do I even find her here?

I couldn't blame anyone but myself for this.

I'm done doing my job for her. Why do I even run away here like crazy?

Just when I was about to search for her in the middle of the crowd, the rain started to drop.

The crowd went into chaos that causes me to lost my focus. Everyone went to seek shelter.

Fvck, my conscience is killing me. I continued searching for her until I found her there.

I found her in a bench, sitting not minding the rain that's pouring.

Luckily I went to buy umbrella earlier. I sheltered her with the umbrella I was holding.

She looked at me with full of hopes.

Just then, my whole world start to stop again.

Why are you doing this? 

It pains me by just seeing you. Memories of us together flashbacks on the back of my head.

"What the hell do you think you're doing? It's raining for fvcks sake". I yelled and immediately regretted doing it.

I sighed in disbelief.

What are your plans  in your life Jen?

I left you fine as hell,  now, you are here,  looks so damn wasted and miserable.

"I-I k-know you'll find me, that's why I stayed". She quivered in fear. Her voice broke.

I am not the Lisa you know anymore. This will be the first and last I am doing this. I am now totally fine. I can't bear to see myself in a situation like before cause it feels like hell. 

I stood right in front of her while holding the umbrella, looking at her intently.

"Get up, I'm bringing you home". I still offered her my hands but she didn't take it.

"Let's talk please. I have lots of things to say. Hear me out lisa". She begged crying now.

T-talk? No! Not this time Jen. I already forgotten about those. I already burn those memories and accepted it already.

Why the hell are you even here? What are you doing in a damn convenient store?

"I told you, we have nothing to talk about. Go home, the rain is getting stronger". Just listen to me. You might end up getting a cold. 

Damn, my mind keeps betraying me again. I always say something that is not nice yet my heart always says the opposite.

This is the reason why I left before. Cause when I didn't leave, I know I'll end up coming back to her arms again.