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"about hoseok, i want to talk about hoseok with you since you know him and you known each other for a long time back in  college."

yoongi pov

as soon as i heard the name, the name that i always love. And the name i hate because of the pain i caused him.

"what about him? is there a problem with him? is he at least ok?"

i worriedly asked him, its about years since the incident happen. In those years regretting for the things i said and did to him. After that, I didn't hear a single news from him. Someone from my colleague confirms that 2 days after that, he moved out of Gwangju. Yes, i still love him even if i have a son and a wife now. he's my first and last love to me.

"i think it is time to tell you this."

"hoseok's dead"

What?

What do you mean dead?

What happened?

Is it because of me?

Many questions went up to my head, I couldn't do anything . I can't move, respond, or anything at all. He's saying something but I can't hear anything. Still trying to process about what I just heard and its probably the words I don't want to hear ever in my life.

"yoongi?? I know this is hard to process but let me explain first."

FLASHBACK TO YEARS AGO

hoseok pov

after moving out of gwanju, i must admit i still can't move on from him. i tried different things like dating apps, hook ups, and blind dates but they couldn't be the same man who i fell in love with.

he's so rich now. he's so successful, can get whatever they want and basically just the richest man in the country. i still miss him very much. everynight i still dream of him, watching the memories we had when we were together. all of the happy and lovely memories we created. then suddenly the door opened and it was my boss.

"go and get dressed, clients need you"

even if i don't want to, i stood up and fixed a little bit of my make up and got out.

if you're wondering about it, i am gonna answer you straightly.

I work as a stripper.

you might think that its one of the job that pays well but to burst your bubble, it really isnt. you don't have self-respect, dignity and moral anymore. this club is different from what you know. most of us dont get paid or even sometimes get raped but we can't do anything about it since we might get killed. this is owned by the most ruthless and savages mafias you will ever encounter.

therefore, i started performing with the eyes of disgusting men in front of me. i loved performing but i lost sparks anymore. after hours passed i was finished but our boss grabbed my wrist.

"where are you taking me? please i need to go home, my mother needs me please."

i begged and tried to pull out but after the weight i lost, it was no use anymore. he didnt say anything and he just threw me in a random room with a king size bed. i was shock in fear and by the sight i was seeing, there was three men naked and i immeidately knew what is happening. this is the first time my boss sold me out. i just turned around in shock and saw my boss smirking so sinister.

"have fun boys"

i ran to the door with my weak body but i was too late, he shut the door quickly. no one can help me but i still tried. i shouted for help, banged the door but it was no use. one man took me and threw me to the bed and it was the start of my nightmare as the sight of mine gets dark.

soon after, i didnt die. light entered in my eyes little by little and felt the pain i have from my hips. cum were everywhere, hickeys and bruises all over my body, can't feel my lower body but even if all of this, i still have to get home. i looked at the clock and it was 4:30 am, i am still gonna make it.

the truth was....no one really knows what i usually do in the night. most of the poeple who knows me knew i worked in a coffee shop but in the night is what i kept all hidden. i dont want to worry my mother especially if she is suffering from a lung disease. i dont want to make it worse anymore so i decided not to tell her anything about this. i just sneak out to go to work.

even with my numb body, i still got up and cleaned myself. i looked in the mirror and i barely recognized myself. the whole me is gone, the one i see now is just a human- being barely surviving in this cruel world.
after that i got dressed and tried to go my way at home. i barely see the surroundings around me, all i want is to just get home and embrace my mother, the only person i know in this world. suddenly a bright light surrounded me, i cant move anymore. i just accepted what will happen to me. mom, i am sorry, i am really sorry.

and with that...........a big pact went to my body as the speeding truck hit my body causing me to lost my consciousness

forever.

yoongi pov

"no one really knew why he was found dead in the middle of the night, even his mother didnt know he was out in the middle of the night. but he was found with lots of bruises when he was cleaned out from the blood he had. it was a traumatic scene, i am the one caring his mother now. i get hurt and sad when sometimes i hear his mother talking to her sleep with hoseok. not going to lie it was creepy but i wouldnt do such a thing to ruin their moment even if it is true or not. i am sorry if the news went to you so late. i tried to find you since hoseok's mother insisted to at least let me tell you what happened to him because she knows his son is still in love with you."

its hard to process every word that comes from his mouth. its hard to accept that he's already dead without letting me see him for the last time. i know to myself it was my fault but i am still disappointed at myself for leaving him all alone in the darkness. i couldnt help it but let my tears fall down. i felt hyung's hand rub my back and i let it because i needed it so much. i cant imagine what he had gone through and have a tragic death like this.

"do you know where his grave lies?"

as i stand in front of his grave, i just knew i have to say sorry for the pain i caused him through his life. i just knew i have to ask for his forgiveness. i couldnt do it anymore and just dropped on my knees infront of his grave.

"i know i don't have the guts to show my face to you or even talk to you. hoseok i am sorry, i am really sorry i lied to you. there was no dare at all, the feelings i had for you was all real, no lies. my father did it to me, i didnt want him to hurt you so i obeyed him. all of the memories we had and the kisses and the looks i had for you was all real. i love you so much i was willing to do anything just for you to be with me for eternity. i didnt know why i left you all alone and didnt even get to fight for you. i am sorry i am really sorry hoseokie i am sorry. i don't if you will ever forgive me even in heaven but i just want to ask for forgiveness and tell to you that no day i dont have you in my mind. i love you, i love you very much"

i sobbed and sobbed until all the tears i have in me is gone. i don't really care about my tears, i just want my hoseok back with me, back in my arms like we used too.

"come back to me, please"

THE END