My best friend's brother is the one for me???

chapter 4: emotional wreck

Nikki's P.O.V

As soon as I got to anne's room, I couldn't help but think about what I just saw awhile ago.

I have to get used to him being shirtless. I mean, he's a guy. Guys like being shirtless... I think?

Suddenly, the sound of the door opening snapped me back to reality.

Kiel sat down beside me

"So, what can I do for you? why'd you go here?"

"I just wanted to ask you stuff about last night."

he raised an eyebrow and smirked

"what about last night?" he says chuckling

"what happened? Anne said that we disappeared. Where did we go?"

I suddenly noticed him smiling.

Oh shit. what did I do? what if I confessed to him? What if I told him how I felt about him?

"Okay, so you were really drunk. You went up to me and dragged me to the playground near our house. As soon as we got there, you sat down on the grass and told me to sit beside you. I did. Then you put your head on my shoulder. You were extremely quiet, which I wasn't used to. We started talking about random stuff."

"like what?"

"your ex..."

"Michael?"

"Yeah, him. You were telling me how much you missed him. You kept repeating it. I even memorized the whole thing." he says chuckling

"what did I say?"

"you said 'I miss those times when we would facetime until he falls asleep, and I'd just lay there, watching him sleep peacefully. I miss those times when he would play for me. I miss those times when I fall asleep, and I wake up only to find him staring at me, and when he notices, he'd look away and pretend like nothing happened. I miss those times when he would ignore me, because he's too busy with his video games. I miss those times when he would hug me really really tight, like he was afraid to let me go... but he did' after you said that, you started crying and questioning why he left you."

I know that I said I didn't want to miss him and that I really hate him, but deep down, I still love him. He will always be the boy who made me fall head over heels for him using his charm, sweetness, and his efforts.

I didn't notice that I started crying, until Kiel wiped my tears using his hand.

and then I lost it.

I started bawling.

I miss him. I wanted him back, but no. He found someone else. Her name's Hannah.

Its annoying, because he seems happier with her. It's like, nothing happened between me and him. It's like he never loved me in the first place. He said that he did, but when I saw him with that girl, It's like every moment we spent together went down the drain.

Kiel suddenly hugged me, which just made things worse. I don't know why, but when people hug me when I'm crying, makes me cry more.

I couldn't stop crying.

I was an emotional wreck.

After a few minutes, Anne arrived and quickly ran to me and took me from Kiel's arms.

She kept asking me what's wrong, but I couldn't talk. I was too busy bawling.

After a few seconds, she finally got why I was crying. I would go to her when I felt like crying which was like, every single day. Its been 2 months and 2 weeks since he ruined me.

It's so hard to move on. Sure, I love Kiel, but I don't have a chance with him. So, I looked for a way to move on. Then, I met Michael.

*FLASHBACK*

It was a lovely Saturday evening. I went to the skating rink, as usual. I put on my skates and decided to do 5 laps before I go and chat with my friends. I was at my 4th lap, until someone tripped me and I fell. I fell and I couldn't see anything.

fuck. my glasses, where are they?

I suddenly heard someone go to me.

"excuse me, are you okay? here, let me help you up."

he grabbed my hand and as soon as i touched it, I felt sparks.

As soon as I got up, he said

"are these your glasses? here let me wipe them for you."

after a few seconds, I felt him put my glasses on for me.

"Thanks.." I blushed and looked down

"I'm Michael by the way"

"Hi, I'm Nikki. Nice to meet you" I say giving him a friendly smile

"So.. "

"sooo?"

"How come I've never seen you before?" This is like the first time I've seen him

"Oh, I usually skate on fridays."

then his friends called him

"Michael! we have to go. Let's go to my house!"

"okay yeah wait. I'll be with you in a moment!"

He turned to me and gave me an apologetic smile

"Go ahead. It was nice meeting you though. see you around!"

"But wait! let's take a picture first."

So, he gets his phone and takes tons of pictures.

I suddenly got his phone and put my number in it.

"Just text me if you're skating, okay?"

"okay. nice to meet you" he says while grinning like a kid who just got candy.

before he left, he gave me a really tight hug and walked away

*FLASHBACK ENDS*

What did I do?
What did I do to deserve this?

Every night
I cry and cry
Wondering why

You left me here
Wanting to die
Questioning life

You know what's stupid?
I thought we were real
I thought everything was real
The hugs
The kisses
The holding of hands
When you would put your arm around me

Until

I saw you do those things with another girl

Why?

I thought
You loved me

I thought
We were perfect for each other