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Chapter 2

     The air is salty but calming as I drive past a huge beach it's crowded as you would assume it to be on a Saturday. I've been driving for 5  hours straight with 4 coffee stops. My hair is pulled into a mess less bun and sun glasses are placed on my head the GPS has made me take 4 wrong turns and it's really getting on my nerves. I wonder if I will have to share my dorm room with a freshman? I have a year left of university until I can finally start working. I have some money saved up because I started working when I was about 14 so I could make enough money for college. I turn up the radio as my favorite song turned on at the same time I see the "Welcome to Alfred Massachusetts" sign.   "Holy shit! I'm here! I'm here!" I have a miniature panic attack out but In this moment I feel so lightless and alive. This is a new start for opportunity. As I drive through the huge town I feel like this is were I belong but I also feel so intimidated. Maybe somehow this was a mistake. But I know deep down this is what I needed what  I wanted my entire life. Sometimes I wonder if I did things different my mom might have liked me or cared about me more. But right now I can't focus on the past. This is my future and in order to have a future I have to stop acting like my past. I've done online classes until now because my mom would have never allowed me to go back to school so I took secret classes for a year. My Mom Helen, thought school was a waste of time and money. But to me education is everything it's the building block of life. By the end of this year I'll turn 20 and be out of school. I wanted to get a bachelors degree but I don't have enough money to put me through university that long. Although I do plan to go back to school in a few years to get my bachelors degree. I like to think I have everything planned but I  definitely don't. I pull onto campus and I feel very ambitious to be able to be in school for the first time in a year or two and getting the best education that I can. I park 3 lanes away from the dorms. I walk into the brick building and head towards the front desk. The woman behind the desk seems to notice me after a few moments of me standing here. "Hi I'm Isabel how can I help you?" Her  loud voice booms. "Oh! Hi I'm going to be a student here and I need the  keys for my dorm room." I think I say kindly enough so it's not awkward. "Okay sweetie I need your name." The girl behind the desk says slightly calmer. "Stephanie Cohen." I replied, tapping my fingers on the wooden desk. " lovely seems your rooms on the third floor, hallway H, buh bye!" She says quickly as her phone goes off. I go back outside and grab two small suitcases and a few bags and box's out of the trunk of my car. It may have taken two trips back to the car and up to the third floor but it was so worth it because once I walked into my dorm the walls were plain and nobody was in there. I had mixed feelings about not having to share a room with someone. If I shared a room maybe I could make some friends but it's fine cause I'd rather be alone. I unpackaged a box and pulled a candle and a box of matches. This is perfect I couldn't have asked for a better place to be. It was almost 7:00PM and I was so exhausted from running around all day. And that damn GPS for not knowing where the hell it's going. I lay my head on a pillow on the bed and almost instantly fall into the deepest and best sleep I have ever had.
It's been awhile since I could sleep and when I say sleep I mean real deep sleep. I just haven't felt safe anywhere else. Tomorrow I'll have to go shopping and unpack everything.