Gasoline - Ranboo Angst

Chapter 25

Ranboo's POV

TW: Stabbing, forced silence, swearing, flinching, yelling, scars, mentions of arresting, screaming, surgery, removal of knife, mentions of drugs (pain killers), mentions of being drunk, mentions of death, mentions of homophobia, coming out (this is one of my triggers personally so even though it ends up being positive I just want to put it in here for others), crying, mentions misgendering, mentions murder

He put his finger to my lips before stabbing me in the area I remembered as my McBurney's point. I winced and tried to muffle a small cry of pain.

"Shut it dumb shit." He whispered. He dragged the knife up my leg, leaving a thin trail of blood behind. I managed to stay silent this time. But then he began dragging it further up my body.

Past the stab wound, past that old scar I had from falling off my bike when I was younger, past my chest- brought up to the left side of my neck.

And that was when I saw Wilbur.

But my Dad hadn't noticed.

I screamed as soon as I felt the knife go through my skin. Everything went dark.

"WILBUR RUN! GET OUT OF HERE!" I yelled before fading in and out of consciousness.I could briefly hear yelling and the sounds of someone being arrested.

I opened my eyes and everything was blurry. Was this how it felt to be drunk? I was in- what I could only assume was a surgery room. A nurse was removing the knife from my neck, their hands shaky.

I couldn't really feel much. I briefly wondered if this was the cause of adrenaline or drugs. Maybe a bit of both.

I closed my eyes again only to feel pressure against my neck. I assumed they were bandaging it. I went unconscious again.

What I assumed was a while later because I could no longer feel anyone prodding my torso or my neck.

Suddenly I remembered. 

Wilbur.

My eyes shot open.

Tubbo and Tommy were staring at Tubbo's phone in tears.

I wanted to yell and ask what had happened. But I couldn't. My throat was in too much pain. I aggressively began waving my arms around.

They must've seen because they immediately jumped and gazed over at me. Then they rushed over and hugged me.

"Wha-" I started before dissolving into a coughing fit which only caused more pain. "What happened?" Tubbo guessed when I was finished. I nodded.

"We- we heard you scream and a bunch of people began running to your hospital room. Wilbur was just running out. Phil had told him off for leaving you alone with him considering your last experience with him had- according to him- resulted in your mother leaving. He figured you might've been traumatised and wouldn't want to be alone with him so Will decided he'd come in. When we came in your heart monitor was flat. Anyways everyone but us are looking for Wilbur now. But that other guy who just so happens to be related to you- the amazing Ranboo- is being jailed now." I relaxed. Wilbur was safe.

But Tubbo and Tommy we're still tense.

"So Boo..." Tommy started. I nodded trying to show that I acknowledged that he was talking. "About those dreams we had... there was a part in mine where that other guy... he said you were a boy and you- you just seemed to flinch- so we were wondering... like are you not a guy? And if so what are your pronouns?"

Fear was flung through my body. Were they asking just to purposely misgender me?

They handed me Tubbo's phone open on notes. I sucked in a shaky breath and Tommy put his hand on my shoulder comfortingly. "Take your time." I began to type out on the screen:

'I'm non binary and bisexual. I use Xe/Xem and They/Them pronouns. My Mum left when she found out and slapped me and left me with my Dad. I remember I was so excited and then- minutes later I was crying. My Dad abused me the rest of my life. And then I found Thalia. She didn't mind. And my Mum came back later because she realised it was okay for me to be non binary. But my Dad hated that they encouraged me and- he killed them. He said if I ever told anyone else he'd kill whoever I told. He didn't want the secret to get out. And I couldn't let that happen to you guys. Any of you.'

I stared them straight in the eyes when I finished typing it before looking down nervously. Their eyes skimmed down. I wanted to kick myself. Why would I think they'd accept me?

But I began to cry as I felt arms wrap around me.

"Don't worry Boo. You're amazing. We accept you. We love you just the way you are. We couldn't care less as long as you're happy and safe." Tubbo said. "Fuck yeah. Completely agree. You're so brave. You're true to yourself and that's incredible. We're both so proud of you. And I personally want to beat up that shit bag." Tommy agreed.

My voice was rough and it really hurt.

But I managed to say a sentence.

"Thank you."

A/N I know this is a pretty full on chapter. Very sorry about that. And also I spent hours on this trying to find a bunch of medical articles but they didn't go into too much detail, which is understandable so I'm very sorry if this isn't a medically accurate chapter which it probably isn't. But please don't come at me for this. I tried to find articles and diagrams to help me understand and I tried to remember my times in the hospital but I was also like 4-7 when I had surgeries and only stayed overnight recently so it didn't really help.