C.R.E.M.E

May

                                       May
Later that night.

I squinted my eyes as my pupils tried to adjust to the dark, I stared at the flashing red and green lights that lined the crack house, a ratted old white Santa doll sang about A silent night, some fiends idea of Christmas. I looked down at the old drug Paraphernalia filled table , I was out of rocks, shit I was out of my fucking mind I thought as I stared at my chipped mismanaged manicure, damn I was missing a fucking ring. I looked back to the table. "Where the fuck are my car keys." I screamed standing up, searching the table, myself and the couch they were no where in sight. I ran outside, barefoot checking that my car was still there, it was not. "Oh my Goshhh ,On my fucking birthday." I fell to my knees and cried as the cold snow under my body numbed me, that's all I had left to my name. I was fuming as I wiped my tears and stormed back into the house. "Where the fuck is my car ?" I screamed snatching the first fien I saw, she tried to shield her face as I slammed my fist into her face, breaking her glasses, her nose bleed and she screamed out.
"Bitch, I don't know, when I got here you were passed out on the couch, you broke my fucking nose, Nigger !" She said bent over, With a tuned up face I grabbed the snow oglobe off the table and busted her in her head she fell forward and I kick her in her shitty as mouth, spit on her and left I was shit out of luck. I started to walk barefoot in a fucking blizzard to the closet place I knew, Home.

I couldn't believe I let myself get this low. I went from having it all from my man to my own home to being a addict to crack, I wiped a tear away. I wanted so badly to put this on Bronz but the truth was I couldn't after the first time I tried coke I was hooked. I started to do it behind his back with Princess when I would go home often taking little at a time. Once Princess stoped because she was showing, I started hanging with the wrong crowd, and that coke problem quickly turned into a crack problem. Soon I started stealing, and lieing from the people I loved, I never sold my body and I was proud of that. I held up my to big pants with one hand, each step I took in 8 feet of snow, I could hardly see as huge snow flakes fell I wiped my running cold nose with the other hand. I prayed no one saw me as I approached my Moms house 20 minutes later, froze.

I flung the front door open , leaving it that way eager to get warm, my mom and sister starred at me eating Christmas dinner.
    "Why is my door unlocked." My mom asked looking at my sister." She shrugged, looking at me in discuss. "And where the fuck you been, girl." My mom asked getting up off the couch, I kept my stare at June.
    "Like you care." I said heading up to my room to warm up and put on dry cloths. I checked my hiding place for a couple rocks I put up and they were gone, I flipped racing down the stairs head half was through my hoodie. "Who touched my shit." I spat.
    "What shit ?" My mom asked, curious.
    "Don't play dumb with me Ma, my fucking rocks, my shit were is it at ." I screamed, as June smiled enjoying this.

Smack

My mom back handed me, catching me off guard.
    "Who the fuck you talking to ?" She yelled with her finger in my face. "I don't know shit about no rocks, but if I did I wouldn't get them to you, look at your self daughter you need fucking help. And I blame that punk ass Bronz" She screamed.
    "Don't blame him ,The dumb bitch is a crack head face it and I threw that shit away." June said laughing .
   "What." My mom said looking back at June puzzled some of this was his fault. I charged her cause I didn't like the way she was defending my man I landed a punch to her jaw, she side stepped and I caught a upper cut , almost falling I tried to put her in a head lock but this bitch was bigger then me she pushed me with such force I stumped out the screen door and hit every step on the way down.  "Fuck you, you dumb slut ass bitch." I screamed as I noticed the neighbors coming out to check the commotion, Princess started to make her way down , belly poking out.
    "May?" She asked as if she wasn't sure it was me. June and my mom stood at the top of the stairs.
    "Y'all stop this shit." My mom yelled y'all are fucking sisters, it's Christmas and it's y'alls birthday."
    "Nah, fuck that bitch."
    "Fuck you, crack head as bitch, that's why I'm better then you." June said smiling. I charged her, my mom caught me pushing me to the ground, I stood up and spit at the ground.
    "Stop !" My mom yelled .
    "I hope you bitches die." I screamed, holding back tears, pushing pass Princess . "I hope you bitches die."