Always | Keisuke B.

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KEISUKE BAJI'S DIARY
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05/13/04

I slept at her room again, it wasn't suppose to be an issue, I'd done it for years now ever since we were kids. I hate to admit that I'm starting to feel awkward around her, maybe because we're not kids anymore? I find her pretty, though I always knew she is, but right now I think I'm attracted to her. Damn it!

06/02/04

I gave her a son! It's a cat, the black one, but it doesn't matter, we decided to treat him like OUR own kid. His name bothered me, it will make her remember me all the time, which means that I'll be on her mind even if I'm not around.

09/21/04

She cried. Baji jr. just died today, I don't want her to feel sad that's why I just treated her ice cream even if she's the one who arrive last at the store, she baked me a chocolate cake in return. I left her on her room when she fell asleep, she might be tired, emotionally. On my way home, I finally realized that I don't just like her, I love her. I'm madly inlove with her, but I'm afraid that she might not feel the same way, admitting my feelings could just ruin our friendship. I want to keep her, she's just too precious.

10/16/04

I met her at the park nine years ago. She was crying for the reason that no one wants to be friends with her, her eyes were so beautiful I almost got lost. Everytime I look back on that day, it makes me think, what would be my life without her? I have friends, I'm strong, I'm not lonely, but would I'll be this happy? She's like my comfort place in every tiring day, a sunshine in darkness, she's a calm zone in my chaotic world. I really love her that it sometimes scare me.

10/22/04

She caught Draken holding a baseball bat next to me, she thought he was going to hit me with it, that's why she attacked him with a wooden stick that surprised everyone from Toman. It wasn't suppose to be funny, but I laughed so hard. Who wouldn't? She just declared a war to Draken, Toman's second in command. I'm inlove with a tiger, she really is brave, but I still don't hesitate to kill those who'll hurt her, I'm going to protect her at any cost.

12/20/04

She told me she loves me. I can't believe my ears, she really said it. She thought I didn't heard her talking to herself again, her weirdest habit. Why did I know that she was referring to me? Simple, I'm the only one she's calling 'bakaji' and no one else, ofcourse I pretended that I didn't hear anything, but the face that she made today was priceless, she's blushing so hard like she's barely breathing. I couldn't supress my grin, heart beating abnormally fast, I'm afraid she might notice that somehing's off with me, that's why I left.

12/31/04

New year nearly approaching, but I'm still into her.

02/24/05

I don't know why I made a diary, how lame. So, I just realized lately that I started writing here when I found myself slowly falling for her, I don't have anyone to tell about it, I also don't want anyone to find out. This is really so uncool, why am I exactly doing this? Seriously, I never thought I would.

03/12/05

I kissed her, I know I shouldn't be doing that while she was asleep. We're friends, she trust me. I'm not sure why I did it, I just couldn't stop myself anymore. I really want her to know that I love her, at any possible way, but I also don't want her to feel uncomfortable around me. Guess I'll just have to keep this feeling to myself.

04/28/05

It's been a week since the last time she talked to me. She's ignoring me. I was such an asshole for making her cry in the first place, that was the first serious fight that we had, we fought because I didn't get to watch her play at school. She played a role as Juliet Capulet on Romeo and Juliet, the play didn't went well as what her groupmates said, she cried even if she wasn't suppose to. It's my fault, I chose Toman over her. I don't know what to do anymore, I want her forgiveness, I want us to be back to normal again.

04/29/05

I really thought she wouldn't forgive me. I swear I'm not going to make her mad nor cry again, it scares me to death, like I was about to lose her for real, I don't want that, I might perhaps lose my sanity.

06/11/05

She scolded Chifuyu for not letting her know that I had gone into another fight again, poor him, he was obviously got frighten by a mere girl. Now someone got a taste of what I have been experiencing all these years.

07/17/05 (Let's assume that this is your birthday)

I'm glad I made her happy today, its her day anyway. I'm dying to know what her wish was, but she promised to tell me once it is granted, so I guess I'll just wait. I want to celebrate more of her birthdays, where should I bring her next year? What should I get her? I want it to be not just special, but also memorable. I can't wait, I want to witness her growing through the years, wearing those breathtaking smiles, she's really the prettiest when she's happy.

08/09/05

I couldn't sleep. That's why I just decided to write here. I was wondering, I always have this feeling of missing her, even after just seeing her, it's strange I know. But I feel like I want to spend more time with her, talking to her, staring at her for the rest of the day, I want to do those little things more often. Maybe, just maybe, one day, I couldn't do them anymore.

10/25/05

I just broke my promise, I made her cry again. It broke my heart, seeing her like that knowing that I cause it, nothing more painful than that. I finally got to give her the ring, I made it myself last month, I only got a chance to give it today. It perfectly fits her finger, I measured her size when she slept at my room.

10/27/05

I kissed her last night, again, but this time she was awake and she kissed me back. She even slept in my arms, while I was just staring at her all night, like it would my last chance looking at her peaceful face. It was warm, but I don't know why I cried by just watching her sleep, it really feels strange. I want to tell her that I love her, every single day, incase she might forget. I want to hold her everytime, kiss her endlessly, and I want to be the reason behind her smiles, not her cries. I still want to do more things with her, create more memories that she'll cherish for the rest of her life. I promised to marry her beacuse I really dreamt of having a family with her in the future, growing old with her, a life with her, that would be nice.

10/30/05

I love you so much, [Y/N] [L/N], always. Be happy, alright?

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