𝑀𝓎 𝓂𝒶𝓉𝑒𝓈 𝒶 𝑔𝒾𝓇𝓁

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Alpha POV

It felt so good

she fiddled under me. As she was unable to control her light moans.

I wanted more but I couldn't. It felt wrong to touch her. Her skin felt so smooth and so silky. It felt as if I did anything I would hurt her.

This shouldn't be my first impression.

But her kisses felt like pure gold. It pulled me in. Her sweet taste made me want more. I bit her bottom lip letting her moan as I let my tongue in getting more of her sweet taste. It wasn't enough I wanted to taste something else. I wanted to not just fuck her mouth with my tongue but fuck her pussy with it. I wanted. Wait no. Needed her hot juices on my tongue. I've never felt this way. But my parts felt hot, and they craved. They craved the touch. The feel. The taste.

I place my hands on her smooth thighs caressing them. Rubbing circles with my thumb. Grabbing a handful of her thighs lifting her up closer. The more we kiss the hotter it had gotten. The more her moans and my groans filled the air. I couldn't help wondering about how she felt. She didn't speak letting her body speak for her. Being mated up with someone causes emotions you never knew you had. Her wants to become two time stronger and it's my job to please and make her happy. The ideal shit about mates is please and be loyal to someone your bound to be with. A stranger, a person you end up dedicating your life to. Obeying everything they say.

My hand that was on her thigh slithered it ways up her shirt grabbing her boob. She stopped slowly lifting herself up and pulled out her shirt. I unbounded her bra letting her boobs to be expose "it feels so...hot" She lightly spoke.

I kissed her neck down to her collar bone. "Don't worry" I say as I grab her arms slowly revealing her beautiful Breast. I grabbed them massage them while places kisses on her neck. I groan as her nipples harden under my fingertips. Pinching them I traced her nipple with my tongue lightly biting the nub.

"Ahh..." she lightly moaned as she grabbed my hair pulling me closer. She threw her head back biting hard on her bottom lip. I sucked on her nipple while rubbing and lightly pitched the other. She began to to wiggle around not being able to control her light moans. Removing my hands from her boobs I planted them on her hips pinning them down. I sucked on her nipples harder. Switching giving the other one attention.

"...please" she moaned. I moved, planting a kiss on her lips. I began to make my way down her body giving her a kiss on her cheek then began kissing all over. I got up taking a good look at her. She laid under me biting her lips while looking to her left not making contact with me. But I wanted to see her. I wanted to see how good I can make her feel. Were these emotions from the mating bond. Or deep down did i desire this. To have someone in my arms. Pleasuring instead of hurting. I needed to see the look on her face as I make her feel good. I grab her chin pulling her to look at me. I traced my fingers around her opened legs as now I was sitting be between them. Slowly tracing my fingers in between her lips. Already feeling them soaked threw her panties. They stuck to her like it was glued on. Showing her lips on full display.

Every time she moaned my body grew hot. I wanted to fuck her till her eyes rolled back. But watching her under me fettling around moving her hips up just so she can feel my finger more made me want to go mad.

A load of pain hits me. Catching me off guard. She grabs my waist pulling me closer. Her hand felt so soft on my body yet it hurted every time she touched me. Every time she grabbed onto me holding me close.

An uneasy feeling hits my stomach. Which caused me to stop. My eyes started to become blurry. No. I put my hand on my head as it started to pound. Fuck.

"what's wrong..." hearing her sweet voice fill my ears. She was so close but why does she sound so far. I got off the bed making my way to the door. My body felt like it was going to explode. The heat didn't feel like the heat I got from Afra. No, it burned. I can hear footsteps behind me. She was trying to catch up "wait" she says while trying to grab my arm. I quickly yanked it back. It wasn't going to help. It just made me situation worse. Her touch made it worse. I knew I shouldn't have done this. I let the feelings again control me and it made my attempt to tame it worse.

"This was a mistake, go to bed. " I say not looking back. My head pounded like crazy, and my body felt like it was going to burn up. As I close the door, I leaned a hand on the wall trying to hold myself up. God, I hated this. I tried walking but her smell still lingered around me. I need to get away. My body became hot, and I started to sweat a lot.

The feelings were too much for us. Too much for me. If I haven't left who knows what would've happened. I made my way to my room which was not far and ran to the bathroom. Opening the cabinet, I took a bottle of pills that where for when my problem acted up. I took a handful and put my mouth near the socket letting the water into my mouth downing all the pills. My headache seems to have calmed down, but my body burned as if I was on fire. I turned on the shower hoping in letting the cold water run down my body

My breathing calmed down. Fuck that was close.

Growing up learning to compress your feelings does have its downside. To many emotions causes max to run wild. Thinking enough already had me on top of our mate. "Fuck." I repeated over and over again.

This is a problem.

I took my now full soaked cloths off throwing them in the basket.

I sat back letting the cold water run threw my body. Letting my body cool down back to its original state. I asked myself over and over again what was happening. What was my plan now that I let someone step into my life? And it wasn't no ordinary woman. It's my mate. A person who's supposed to be my soul mate. It's not going to be easy getting rid of her. Even if I didn't want theses emotions. They came. They came by force and there not leaving anytime soon. It's bullshit. I've gone my whole life not worrying about shit and yet I have these feelings. Theses feeling that came and now there controlling my every move.

My mind raced with thoughts.

Solutions

Plans

Maybe I could just reject her. No. I couldn't. I've heard it kills. I may be a monster, but I didn't want another body added to my list. I sucked my teeth in slamming my head on the wall. Distances is what it need to be made. Rules and boundaries are going to be made.

My body cooled down. Making it easier to get up as for a couple of minutes ago my body ached to the point where I fell back down. Feeling better I lifted myself up slowly limping to the mirror.

I stared at my naked body. My neck length hair stuck to my skin. Smaller pieces stuck to my cheek. I touched my lips. Still feeling the pressure from hers as they laid on mines.

I continue to trail my eyes down my body viewing the darks spots that laid agents my stomach and hips.

"Fuck" I mumbled between my teeth.

I knew what was going to happen if she touched me...

Why didn't I stop it?

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