"It's been too long and I'm lost without you. What am I gonna do, said I been needing you wanting you." I sung lowly to myself. I had been talking to Nehemiah for some weeks now and honestly he was a great person to talk to.
I thought he would be stuck up and snobby, but he was quite the opposite. Outgoing, kind, and courageous. Everything he did, he did it with precise. He lived on the edge but wasn't too edgy. He knew how to control himself.
I liked that, a lot actually. I hadn't told Artimea about us talking, I hadn't even told lyric. I wanted it to be right. I wanted to know for sure that he was going to stick around before I introduced him to lyric formally.
I didn't want this to be a trial and he'd come around whenever he felt or popped up whenever. It had to be something consistent, especially with lyric. She was a kid and I didn't want her seeing men in and out of my life. I'd rather keep them private than get her too attached to them.
"Wondering if you're the same and who's been with you. Is your heart still mine?" I sung along, reading one of the letters Kylan had wrote to me.
I had been contemplating on if I should read them or not. I was curious on what he had wrote. Were they love letters or were they clues to something big like in those movies. I was getting impatient and opened one anyways.
A picture drop down and it was one of when we had went on our first date. We had to been no older than fifteen. He was broke and so was I. We had sat in his mama's backyard, made sandwiches, and talked all night. We didn't have to Pennie's to rub together but we made it work.
We was fifteen. What money would we even have.
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This old ass picture, I had to beg Betty to even let me get it. She wasn't having it at all. Talkin' 'bout i was gone lose the picture. But you got it now, brought up some old memories I know it did with yo' intellectual ass.
Our first date, the first time I felt acted on the feelings I had for you. Though I knew you knew that I had feelings it was the first time I actually expressed them to you. Made me feel free and safe. Like I could be anything with you I could do anything with you. Made me feel so comfortable.
You had always made me feel that way but on our first date it was different. Shit was so more out in the open. I cant really explain it but you made me feel things I didn't know I could feel that night.
We made those nasty ass sandwiches you put relish and mayonnaise on top of cheese and only cheese. You were so strange man. But I liked that.
I was shy as hell, I felt nervous around you. Why? I didn't know. I had been around you since I was twelve so it was new for me. I remember when I asked you on the "date" and you were so confused and asked if I was joking.
