Miss Peregrine One Shots

~What happened to my little girl~

Background Information: You have grown up with Miss peregrine and the other children and always looked up to Miss peregrine.

TW: Scratching at skin, sh, intrusive thoughts

At the home for peculiar children, you hadn't left your room except for food. You didn't want to bother anyone with your problems or worce make them feel bad for you. You woke up to knocking on your door and you whimper softly as you didn't want anyone in your room.
But you took to long to reply so you hear a kind voice "y/n can I come in please" in your head you think 'say no. Say no you don't want her to see you like this' but instead what came out was "yea I guess" you curse yourself in your head for that.
Miss Peregrine stepped into your room and sighed "I know it's early but can we talk?" You nod and curl up into a ball as Miss Peregrine sat down on the edge of your bed. "I've noticed that you have been coming down for less meals... Are you alright?" You bite your bottom lip and nod "please talk to me y/n... Now tell me the truth what's wrong? I can see right though your lies."
You look down and shrug, it was too early for you to be able to think of an excuse you were too scared to speak in fear you might say something stupid and blow your cover. "I'm fine... Can you just get out?!" You said kind of harshly toward the woman you've always been kind to. She nodded but you could see the years pooling in her eyes and you felt horrible.
"Wait... I'm sorry come back... Please? I didn't mean it" you looked down and she came back to your bed and kneeled down to your level "honey please I'm worried about you and all I want to do is help... Please let me help you" you think about it and it would be nice to talk and get things off of your chest but you couldn't.
You couldn't risk it.
You sigh "I'm just not hungry" "then why don't you ever come down and see us anymore? We all miss you..." You shrug feeling bad "I don't know, I'm sorry I'll come down right now" you say. Miss Peregrine shakes her head no and grabs your hand softly "something is wrong this isnt you... What's going on"
"Stop asking me that!! I don't know ok! Is that what you want to hear?!" You yell at her and she flinched softly at your harsh tone "right sorry I'll leave you then" she stands up and walks out of your room.
'Your so stupid! Why would you do that!' You say to yourself and start scratching the inside of your wrist, as hard as you could until you could feel some type of pain.

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You look down at your scratched up arms and you cried until you fell asleep. You woke up with blood on your sheets and you panic knowing Miss Peregrine would have to wash these some time soon.
You look down and you get out of bed you needed to apologize to miss peregrine. You put on a sweatshirt to cover your arms and you began walking out of her room and she wandered around when she saw Olive "olive? Where is miss peregrine?" "Wouldn't you like to know" she rolled her eyes and kept walking.
You frown and raise an eyebrow and she continued to wander. You finally got to Miss Peregrine's room. You knock gently on the door and got nervous, if she was in here it would be your fault she was never in her room at this time of the day unless she was upset...
You heard a very small "Come in" and you sighed walking into her room finding Miss Peregrine laying on her bed. She wasn't facing the door and she sounder like she had been crying. You climb onto the bed and you wrapped your arms around her tightly "I'm so sorry I really am I was tired and scared" "of what" "what do you mean?" You ask in return "what are you scared of" "what wouldn't I be afraid of? If you really want to know so bad I'm afraid of you seeing that I do this to myself" you pull up your sleeves and see Alma's face straighten out and you could tell that her heart sank "y/n wh-" she was going to ask you why but then realized that it might not be a good time "I hurt your feelings... I felt bad I deserved it"
Miss Peregrine looked at her with very concerned eyes "honey please.... You will never deserve this understand? You are an amazing young lady and you have so much potential" "you scoff and roll your eyes "please we both know that I will never be successful I will never get older, I will never go to college, I will never get a job, have a family, it's just September 4th 1940, over and over again..." Miss peregrine sighed back and nodded "I thought we were your family y/n" "you know that's not what I ment"
"And you know what I ment by you have potential" she said and she tucked a piece of your hair out of your face. "Just please talk to me more... I miss when you would talk to me about your day, no matter how many times it repeats itself.
You nod slightly "I'll try... And I'll try to start coming out of my room more often" you force smile softly at her and Alma kissed you head "now come on let's go bandage you up.