When we all fall asleep, where do we go?

6. wish you were gay

Home.

Mick was finally home. After three weeks of actual hell. He glad to be back home and he actually enjoyed it quite much, except one things was missing.

Callum.

He missed him like a crazy, Mick barely slept without him. Sometimes Callum called just so he could fell asleep. Mick always fell asleep while he listened Callum telling stories about his day. Callum's voice was calming, deep but not too deep, he had an accent but not too thick, accent Mick fully understood. He loved it, his lover boy's British accent.

The day came, he needed to head to Saudi-Arabia, back to work. He was actually quite excited if he was being honest. All the old friends were there, Marcus Armstrong, Robert Shwartzman, Guanyu Zhou and all the other ones he missed.

Mick was sitting in the plane waiting to finally arrive to Saudi-Arabia. There was couple team members with him but they were chatting together. Mick was sitting away from the with his earphones on.

Callum had called to him before he got into his plane. He would pick him up from the airport.

Mick was zoned out. Fallen deep into his thoughts. He got distracted from work at home and that's what he exactly wanted. Seeing dad made him happy.

He enjoyed all the little moments he had with Michael. It didn't matter what they were but he enjoyed. He talked about his weekends to Michael. Mick knew he listened or even tried and that's all that mattered.

The flight took enough time to Mick to think about a lot of things, but finally he arrived.

And there he was. His lover boy.

Callum's hair was glowing again, looking like the colour of honey.

Mick flew into Callums arms as fast as he could. "how was it to be back home?" The Brit asked "fantastic, I saw dad and I obviously missed you like a crazy." Mick said still hugging him. "Micky we are still in public airport, let me go." Callum said while giggling. "I don't want to, only if we can cuddle when we get to the hotel." Callum shook his head. "Of course we can, now let's go."

While they drove to the hotel Mick told everything he did with his mum or Gina, they're best friends with Gina, ever since 1999. Mick still kept quiet about his father.
"You know I would love to tell you about dad but I'm not allowed I, I'm just so sorry." Mick apologized.

"Hey boy, it's fine I completely understand it's not your fault. Don't overthink it. You're not going to tell, I'm not going to ask." Callum told Mick and took his hand. They both smiled at each other.

Callum fell asleep almost immediately after they got into bed, Mick wasn't tired so he decided to call Esteban. They made up plans. Mick took a shower, got dressed.

He gave Callum a kiss and left. He got his wallet and phone.

"Ugh would you who are they??? Is it the girl you were hanging on March?" Esteban asked. He was so curious about Micks little lover. "Mick who is it, who you called your lover just a moment ago. Who called you?"

Mick was giggling because to him it was funny how curious Esteban was. "oh okay fine fine fine. I'll tell." "I'm listening." Esteban said and took a sip from his coffee. "It's Callum." "how long?" "Since Qatar so 3 weeks" "so just a new thing, but god knows how long you've had feelings for him." They both laughed.

Esteban told how he spend his off week with his girlfriend Elena. It sounded as wonderful as his weekend was.

Mick was now going back to his hotel. He promised to hang out with the French man as soon as they could. Two weeks and he was free. He could finally focus on himself, his boyfriend and his family.

Mick hasn't told his mum about Callum and him. He didn't know how she would react. She wanted best to him and Gina she didn't want them to get hurt. Of course she thought about Michael as well, would he be ready to see new faces? Would Callum be able to see Michael at all. Would they trust him.

Mick knew they needed to talk about this, since they were thinking about spending Christmas and new year together. Mick needs to know, because then he needs to tell others they'll come and the others needs to plan where's everyone. Especially Michael because they haven't talked about Michael and Callum meeting each other.

How fucking complicated his life was he thought when he stepped into the hotel room. "Ayo, are you here?" "yea baby, here just going out with Marcus, he asked if Iwanted to have couple drinks. I made u a little dinner, it's in the fridge." "thank you, thank you, thank you Callum so so so much." Mick said hugged him and kissed his cheek.

When Callum left Mick already ate. Callum wanted to make sure he ate. The his phone rang. "hey, son! Wanna come for a walk? How are you doing." It was Sebastian. "Hey Seb! Yes of course why not." "okay see you in 20 mins." Seb said and ended the call.

"How was Michael? Your mum?" Sebastian asked while they were walking around. "Dad's just like before. Smiled when I saw him. Mum's doing great, little bit tired." Mick told. "What about Callum?" He asked and smirked a little. "He's- wait? How do you know." "Do you think I'm blind hey! Of course I've seen the way y'all look at each other what's going on." Mick blushed a little. "we're dating." Mick smiled a little. "No way boys, that's great Mick! Who else knows?" "Gina, Esteban and you." "Oh okay, I'll keep my mouth shut." "Thanks Seb, Callum wanted to take it slow." "understandable."

Mick asked about Sebastian family, how's his wife and kids doing. Sebastians kids were amazing. He loved them and they loved him. They were such a amazing kids.

Mick returned back to hotel to get to bed. Callum was still clubbing with Marcus. What a best friends are they.

Mick took a shower. Wore fresh underwear and went to bed. Callum had sent him a message

Cal<3: "hey lover, I'm still with Marcus I'll
be back in an hour, go bed already."

Mick didn't answer but read the message. He felt bad when Callum took a care about him so much and he couldn't give Callum back as much as he wanted to. He felt like he couldn't do anything by himself and he always needed help.

Callum took care of him, made sure he got out of bed, ate and other stuff. He didn't deserve Callum. It made Mick feel useless, like he was just a problem to Callum because he couldn't give him back all the things Callum had done for him.

Suddenly he heard door closing. "Cally?" "baby i told you to go to sleep already." "I know you did but just I started overthinking again." "what's wrong?" "You've just done so much for me and I think I can't give you anything back. I feel like a problem to you. You can't even go out with your friends without worrying about me. You even made dinner for me." "I do it all because I love you Mick, and you don't need to give me all back, you're personally struggling right now and I want to help you. I care about you."

"I love you too Callum."

I love you.