When we all fall asleep, where do we go?

8. 8

no way.

There's no way Callum was dead. He couldn't be.

When?

How?

Why?

Why he did this to Mick?

"I'm sorry Mick." Zhou said and hugged him. "It's okay, I'll be okay." Mick said coldly and walked away. This day felt like an endless nightmare.

No one didn't tell him his boyfriend had died while he was fucking sleeping? This was unfair. "Mick wait!" Zhou yelled. "this is to you, from Callum." Zhou handed him a envelope with his name on it.

Mick walked to his hotel, in shock. He couldn't describe how he felt at the moment. He felt empty. His heart was shattered by the news he had just heard from his boyfriend's former teammate.

He sat down on his bed, on the side where Callum has fallen asleep last night. He didn't want to open the envelope Zhou gave him but same time he wanted. He needed to know the reason why Callum left him.

Why did he do that to Mick. Mick was betrayed. He was sad, angry and tired, somehow in shock and didn't want to believe it. This couldn't be true. This was like a nightmare.

Mick needed someone. Just someone. He couldn't think about anyone he could call right now but Sebastian? Without thinking about it more he called Sebastian.

"hey son! How are you." Sebastian asked. "Seb could you come to my room I- I need you." Mick said back to him, his voice was quiet. "Of course, I'm coming don't move, I'm there just in a minute, don't worry everything is alright." Sebastian promised and ended the call with Mick.

Before he could do anything there was already couple knocks behind his door. Sebastian really came in a minute. Mick opened the door to Sebastian tiredly. "Mick what's going on? Where's Callum, shouldn't he be with you?"

Mick took a deep breath. "Sebastian, Callum is dead." Mick couldn't hold it anymore, he burst out crying. "and he left me this letter." Mick tried to say. Sebastian didn't say anything but hugged Mick.

He pulled him into tight hug and didn't let go, Mick needed a tight, warm, long hug now and it was everything Sebastian could do. "do you wanna read the letter, it would help you to understand why did all of this happen." Sebastian asked softly. "if we can read it together." Sebastian nodded and sat next to Mick.

Sebastian opened the envelope for Mick and gave the letter to Mick.

Dear loverboy,

If you're reading this, I'm safe. I'm finally with Anthoine. I don't feel any pain. I'm finally happy again. I'm always watching you. I'm your guardian angel.

You're probably wondering why I left and before I say anything, I'm sorry I did but I couldn't handle it anymore.

Ever since Anthoines death, my life's been difficult. Dealing with anxiety, suicidal thoughts, self harming and depression. It was never easy but you lightened up my days, always. Talking with you always helped me.

You were always there to help me, no matter what happened, even when we collided on track you were never angry. You never said anything bad, you always helped me. We helped each other because that's what friends did.

You helped me when Anthoine died, I was mess and you helped me through it, you never left me. Even though it was hard to you as well.

When you confessed your feelings towards me, I couldn't believe it. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me but did you get enough of love my little dove, and I'm sorry I left, but it was for the best tho it never felt right.

Mick, don't be sad about it that I left, I'm happy and you should be happy that's all I want and I promise you if Michael leaves you, I'll be taking care of him and we'll watch your races together. We will cheer you, I will always cheer you. I'm your biggest fan Mick Schumacher. Always and forever. Don't forget me. Please.

I'm now dancing in the sky, racing with Anthoine like we used to. I'm always watching you. Every day, every night. I'm here for you. Whenever you need me. I will listen to you, I will help you. Even tho I'm not physically there, I will always be there on your heart and I promise, you'll be able to fall in love again, with someone else. We are soulmates in another life.

I'll be waiting you.

Love, Callum your little lover.

Mick wanted to cry but there was no tears left to cry. He had cried too much. More than he thought he could cry. Now he was just empty. "he is in a better place now. He is happy now and that's what I've always wanted." "You're right Mick, just take your time. We will book you a therapist, you can do this and will help you. Everything's gonna be alright. You're not alone."

Mick hugged Sebastian and thanked him. He was so grateful for him. Sebastian has been there for Mick for 9 or 10 years now. They were like father and son, best friends? Something like that.

Mick was tired and Sebastian knew it. "Mick let's order something small from the room service, you need to eat something. Then I'll let you sleep, okay?" Mick nodded.

Sebastian was now taking care of Mick, he was scared to lose him and scared to leave him alone in a situation like this, he needed someone right now and Sebastian was now the person.

"Thank you Sebastian, for everything." Mick said and looked at Sebastian. "you're welcome, I promised to your dad I will take care of you when he can't and I will keep my promise until the day I die." Sebastian said and smiled warmly.

Then they got their little dinners and ate quickly. Sebastian promised he'll sleep with Mick to make sure he really sleeps and has someone there if he has a nightmare.

Mick closed his eyes and fell asleep quicker than he thought he would. He was exhausted. He was sleeping peacefully.

or that's what he thought.

until