When we all fall asleep, where do we go?

9. my strange addiction

what the fuck.

Mick woke up screaming Callum's name, he was all sweaty, crying and feeling dizzy.

"Wow, wow wow Mick what's going on?" Callum asked and was extremely confused.
"I- you then we, I.." Mick tried to say but couldn't get words out of his mouth. "Relax, Mick calm down. I'm here." Callum told.

Mick felt Callum wiping his tears away with his thumb. "tell me whenever you're ready."
Mick took deep breath and opened his mouth. "I fell asleep just normally with you like always. Then I woke up you were gone. No one told me where were you and I- Zhou told me that you were- That" Mick couldn't say the word out loud.

"Hey sweetheart don't worry, I'm here I won't never leave you. I promise, I'll always be here." Callum told to Mick and kissed his cheek.

Mick relaxed a little, he didn't cry anymore but he was still sweaty and shaking. It calmed him down that Callum kissing along side his jawline.

It was Micks favourite thing that Callum did. Mick pulled himself on top of Callum and kissed his lips "I love you" Mick mumbled between the kisses. Mick moved his hands gently down to Callum's waist and pulled down his sweatpants, Callum was already kinda hard. Mick kissed Callum's stomach and slowly moved down to kiss his thighs. Callum let out couple moans.

"Callum what are these?" Mick asked suddenly with all seriousness he had. Then Mick saw Callum moving his legs away from Mick so he couldn't see all the scars he had. "Callum?" "Self harm scars." Callum responded coldly. "Oh baby why haven't you told me." Mick looked at Callum. There was tears rolling down on his cheeks.

"Callum, don't cry it's okay I'm here" Mick promised and sat down next to Callum. "please don't be mad I-" Callum tried to say. "i'm not mad of course not, why haven't you said anything Callum i would've helped you. why didn't you tell me you were struggling? Callum you can't go thru this alone." Mick wiped away Callum's tears.

"I didn't tell, I didn't want you to be mad at me. It just had been hard time after f2. I'm sorry Mick." Callum apologized. "Callum it's fine, I just don't want you to feel that way, I wanna help you." "But you've been struggling as well, you need to focus on yourself. I'm fine." Mick sighted and said "Callum I'm gonna handle this you've helped me a lot, I wouldn't be here without you. It's my turn to help you, let me help please." Callum nodded and didn't say a word. Then he kissed Micks cheek.

"Let's go back to sleep, we're both exhausted. I love you my little loverboy" Mick said and kissed Callum. "I love you too, more than anything else."

Mick loved the way his life was, maybe little problems with mental health but they didn't stop him loving his boyfriend. Callum was the best thing that has happened to him this year and he was ready to do everything to keep him.

Everything.

Morning was hard to both of them. They were both tired. It would be media day so not so bad.

He would only have couple team meetings, training session and nothing more so sounded easy and it would be quickly done. The he could spend time with Callum again.

The love between him and Callum is unbreakable. No one was getting between it. They loved each other more than anything. They've been together for almost a month now and the love was only getting stronger everyday.

Mick was heading to the first meeting with Nikita right now. They didn't say a word to each other. Both of them were surely tired.

The meeting was boring. Nothing new just some basic shit as always. When the meeting was over he headed to Alfa Romeos garage to find Callum.

They were about to do the track walk together. When he reached the garage he saw Callum talked to Antonio. He just looked at them and smiled. The he waved a little. Callum noticed him quickly and he ran into Mick's arm.

"hey baby!!" He almost yelled and hugged Mick. Antonio just looked at them and giggled. "you had fun chatting with Antonio?" Mick asked. "yeah but are we going now? Your trainer is probably waiting you already." Callum said and took the Germans hand.

The whole time they were on the track they were just chasing each other, laughing, joking and such a things. They got confused looks but also smiles and giggles from other people. Mick knew other probably noticed there was something serious between them.

They met lot of friends on the track, Sebastian, Marcus, Robert and Guanyu.

Mick and Callum even shared some kisses when no one was looking. Both of them was having an amazing day. Thursday were easy most of the time and now when there was lot of friends around as well, it helped.

After the track walk they shared couple more secret kisses and left each other. Mick was peacefully walking to Haas' garage until someone pulled him away from other people. "what the he-" Mick tried to say until someone cut him off. It was his manager.

"what is going on between you and Callum Ilott." Nicholas Todt asked. "why are you asking?" Mick looked at his manager confused. Why does it matter he thought? "There's a rumour going on that you're dating." Nicholas looked serious. "Well it's true." Mick answered casually. "what do you want me to say to the media then? They won't leave me alone." Mick sighed and began to talk. "Nothing yet, I'll talk to Callum. I will let you know asap."

Then Nicholas let him go and Mick head was fucked? We're they ready to come out this fast? It was kinda fun hiding it but same time it wasn't but he couldn't think about it now.

He headed to press conference where he was paired with Nicholas Latifi. There they asked just some random questions until they came up with this one question which hit Mick.

"This morning you were seen with a former formula 2 driver Callum Ilott, you two seem really close. Is there something going on between you and him?"

Mick freezed, he was sure no one saw them kissing or anything.

"There's picture of you and Callum kissing close to the Alfa Romeo garage?"

Mick began to shake but he managed to talk. "I don't answer question about my personal life, thank you." Mick asked confidently. Then they were free to go.

Mick took a deep breath when he got out of the room and swiped away the sweat on his face. Then he heard a sweet deep voice asking "hey, Mick are you okay?" It was Nicholas. "Oh hey, yeah I'm okay." Mick confessed. "I'm sorry about the question in the press conference, they shouldn't really ask that kinda questions there." Nicholas comforted Mick a little and gave him a hug.

Mick loved the support and respect from the other drivers. It was unbelievable.

Then his phone rang. It was his little loverboy. Mick didn't realize how long he has been just standing there. "hey loverboy?" Mick said carefully. "where are you?" Callum sounded mad and worried. "I- I'm coming where are you?" Mick asked scared.

After they ended the call. Mick walked to Callum's car which was waiting outside the building. Mick was scared because Callum sounded angry on the phone.

"hi" Mick said quietly. "why did it take u so long?" Callum asked while driving away. "I'm so sorry I didn't mean to, I just uhm" Mick tried to say until he was cut off with a kiss. "Don't worry it doesn't matter, I just waited outside here for like 25 minutes." Callum said and put his hand on Micks thigh.

When they arrived back to the hotel Mick sat to the bed and opened his mouth. "Callum there's something we need to talk." "I know it's on the news already." Callum told and Mick wanted to cry. He didn't want this, he didn't wanted the fame and all the problems. He just wanted to live his life the fullest.

"They asked about us in the press conference, it took so long because I had an anxiety attack but Nicky helped me he was there." Mick revealed. "what did you respond?" Callum asked. "Just told them I won't be answering questions that has something to do with my personal life."
"I'm so proud of you baby, so proud."

Callum was proud of Mick.

proud.