Back for You

Chapter 3

Nat's POV:
I get up early to go and train having not slept a wink. Y/N's return had done nothing but confused me. I'm happy with a Steve right? He's a nice guy. He looks after me. There's something missing. I'm missing the spark, the fire, the passion. My needs are not being met and I'm tired of faking it. I think that's why I propositioned Y/N. Hoping she'd let her morals slip for me. FFS why did she have to be so good? I get out of the shower after training and before I know it I'm outside Y/N's door. I knock and Y/N looks shocked to see me.
"How do you know where I live?" Y/N sighs rolling her eyes.
"I came to apologise. Please can we talk," I reply.
"Fine but only quickly I have a meeting with my London office soon," Y/N accepts reluctantly. We walk into the kitchen where the woman for last night is finishing her breakfast.
"Right I've got to head off to work before your brother kills me," she declares standing up from the table.
"Don't worry about washing up I'll do it. When can I see you again?" Y/N asks nervously. Oh my god she likes her.
"This evening I'm free I'll cook you dinner," the woman whispers against her lips. She smirks at me as she grabs her bag leaving. Fuck her.
"The floor is yours Romanoff," Y/N invites me to talk. As she turns I spot the marks all over her neck damn. They used to be my marks.
"I uh I'm sorry. I had a drink and missed you so much. Steve is great but he doesn't fulfil every need. No one can do that like you can," I explain.
"Again I'll remind you that's your choice. I came back for you and you were no longer mine. What do you want me to do Nat? I won't let you become a cheat. And I won't hurt Steve," Y/N queries.
"Why not? Tell me has one of those women helped you get over us? Have you connected with any of them the way we connect? Tell me you don't want me to drop to my knees right now and make you scream. Tell me you don't want to punish me and mark me as yours. I bet it kills you doesn't it thinking of anyone else with their hands on my body," I challenge her.

Y/N's POV:
Yes it does. I step towards her infuriated.
"Natasha you're not listening to me. You chose him. You're still choosing him. If you picked me you could have all that back Natalia. I could slip my fingers to where you want them most," I taunt her grazing my hands up her thighs. I feel as she tenses against my touch.
"Kiss me," Nat pleads.
"No Natasha. This isn't fair to your boyfriend. He's also your best friend so go home to him Nat if you want to be with him and leave me out of it. But if you want me then prove it. Show me it's me not him," I reason.
"I can't. He made me feel safe for the first time since you. I don't want to lose him but I can't lie and say I'm not in love with you. And I can't say I don't want to be with you because I do. I'm so confused. Oh god I shouldn't be here. It'd hurt him to know I'm here," Nat admits. I cup her face instinctively wanting to make her feel better.
"Natalia I will love you forever ok? So whether it's in 2 months or 2 years we will find our way back to each other. Go and figure out what you want Nat. Just make sure you have everything you desire," I assure her kissing her forehead gently.
"Ok. Thank you. I've really missed you. I miss my friend," Nat sighs hugging me tightly.
"Me too. Maybe we can all hang out sometime just limit the PDA please. You were right earlier," I plead.
"I'd like that. I promise."

Wanda's POV:
Nat comes into the kitchen and looks heartbroken. What did she do? I take her hand leading her to our old home together.
"Let it out," I encourage her holding her tightly.
"Why is this so hard? I love her and we can be with her but I feel so guilty. I owe Steve so much and he deserves a chance but the look in her eyes when she sees me makes me feel like we're back together. How are you staying so calm?" Nat asks desperately.
"I'm not. I'm just good at putting up a front. This is torture. But we owe it to Carol and Steve to see whatever this is through as long as we're happy," I reason.
"Part of me just wants to rush back into her arms but the other knows we need to have everything finished first. I just I can't shake her and I don't want to. But then I feel awful because when I'm in bed with Steve I'm thinking about you and her to get me through it. There's no passion or fire just routine I guess," Nat sighs.
"I always knew you had a thing for my magic hands," I tease to ease the tension.
"I still do. I miss you Wanda. Not just as my best friend but as my girlfriend. Are we just delaying the inevitable?" Nat giggles.
"Maybe but this way we're sure this is what we want. Cause once we're back together that's it. Us together forever. Which is a little terrifying considering everyone I love dies," I fake laugh.
"We're not going anywhere," Nat comforts me cupping my face. Tension fills the air and all I want is to close that gap. It'd just be a kiss right? No I can't. Can I?

"Wanda is this what you?" Nat checks flickering her eyes down to my lips.
"Yes but we can't. Can we?" I inquire desperately.
"It's just a kiss," Nat answers.
"It could never just be a kiss with us," I laugh.
"Maybe just one time to get it out of our system," Nat smirks inching closer.
"I don't know if I can do this without her Nat," I admit.
"She won't do this until we're completely hers. She told me to get my head straight and whether it's 2 months or years we'll find a way back to each other. And she's right. We're meant to be together Wanda. Maybe we shouldn't," Nat sighs.
"Yeah we are but we should wait until everything has run it's course. Though I can't say I'm not desperate to kiss you right now," I blush.
"It's just a kiss."
"Just a kiss," I agree. Nat pulls me in by the waist kissing me hungrily running her hands through my hair. Fuck I want her.
"I don't want to stop," I say.
"You both need to stop now," Yelena warns.
"How long have you been there?" Nat queries.
"Long enough to know you two morons need to break up with your partners and go and climb on Y/N before someone else does," Yelena reasons.
"I should go. Uh see you later," I excuse myself walking out. I listen in even though I shouldn't.
"Just admit you want to get back with them," Yelena challenges Nat.
"I'm not ready to open myself up yet ok. When Y/N left it broke my heart. I think I've finally pieced it back together. I need some time to build up that wall again before I let myself just fall again," Nat mumbles tearily.
"Ok I understand." So do I.