make me fade || e.jaeger

6. connecting the dots

The moment reminds you of when he had first broken up with you as shock fills your body. All you can do is stare at him blankly as he waits for an answer. You know what he was trying to do, you aren't stupid.

It had only been a few days since the break up but a few days was enough. It was enough for Jean to go out and do whatever he wanted without his loyalty for you weighing him down. He finally got a taste of something different and when he realized that no one could compare to you, he wanted to come crawling back.

In his defense, at least he broke up with you before trying to get with other people. God, the bar for men is literally in the basement, no even lower than that, the bar for men was in hell. Yeah, Jean didn't cheat on you but that's the bare fucking minimum. He just tossed you aside like a plaything then came back to his favorite toy when he didn't enjoy the others as much. He is a good guy and has always treated you right before this but what he did hurt you and your feelings are valid.

Though, who were you to deny him? He was your first love after all. He already knew you missed him since you confessed that to him during your drunken state. Therefore, the tough girl act wouldn't work anymore. You can't pretend that you don't want him back because the truth is you want nothing more than that. But can you trust him not to hurt you?

"I don't think things can ever go back to how they used to be but we can work on it?" You give in as a deep sigh exhales from your chest.

You can tell that your words hurt Jean a bit as he realizes that you were right. He quickly grasps both your hands in his and leans down a bit so he is eye level with you. His eyes stare into yours as they reflect nothing but remorse.

"I know I fucked up, Y/n but I promise if you give me the chance, I will prove that I want you and no one but you." Jean expresses, his grip tightening around your hands. He seems like he means it but his new commitment could not erase what he had done. You can let him attempt to though.

You give him a sad smile before wrapping your arms around his neck and burying your face into his bare chest. "I'll give you the chance. How could I say no? I have missed you so damn much." You shamelessly admit for the second time, your voice a bit muffled from being so close to his skin.

Your head moves slightly as Jean's chest releases a sigh of relief and he embraces you by squeezing your body tighter.

"I regretted it so much." He confesses before pulling away to get a view of your eyes again. His eyes look faintly damp like he was trying to hold back tears.

"Yeah as you should." You remark with a giggle as you gently smack the side of his head to bring a little light to the situation.

A small laugh breaks free from Jean's mouth before he turns your body around and gives your ass a light smack, indicating he wanted you to move forward. "Alright let's go get your car from Jaeger's house."

The mention of his name causes your heart to stop momentarily. This whole situation with Jean made you forget that you're seeing Eren again and you were actually excited. The man you have longed for just asked for your heart back but you were ready to open it up to someone else. Of course you are going to stay loyal to Jean as the two of you work on building back your relationship but that wasn't going to stop you from getting to know Eren. You are just way too curious about him despite all the warnings you have been given.

The car ride is quiet but comfortable. Jean's music lowly plays throughout the vicinity as his hand rests on your thigh. It reminds you of old times.

Jean would take you for rides quite often, especially when he knew you were upset over something. He would never talk unless you wanted him to and always listened when you needed him to. He knew the quietness and his smooth driving to nowhere would always calm you down.