make me fade || e.jaeger

8. a different perspective

​ ​ The embrace between you and Eren feels like it can stop time. There was a different type of comfort you found in him that was never found in anyone else before. His whole aura radiates warmth and solace yet intimidation all wrapped up in one with a pretty but damaged ribbon.

Has he only shown this vulnerable side of himself to you? Surely, because everyone else said he was an asshole that only cared about himself. They were all wrong and it pissed you off that they could even speak that harshly about him without knowing a single thing about him.

He obviously cares about people other than himself. He even picked up a dangerous line of work to pay for his mother's health care but no one knew that. Everyone only saw surface level Eren. You were granted the chance to know him on a deeper level. Even if it was by accident, you felt lucky because he was someone that could understand you as well.

How he has acted around other people was none of your business. Quite frankly you don't care either. Most people don't deserve to see this side of him anyway. All you care about is how he was acting towards you, more specifically in this moment.

You regret leaving him earlier. There was so much more you wanted to know. If you had known that your boyfriend was at home getting touched by another woman, you definitely would have stayed and you definitely would have let Eren kiss you.

But this moment you are sharing with him isn't for talking. You don't have the capacity to talk right now. Jean had left a Judas kiss right on your heart and you feel nothing but pain. This moment feels almost on par with when you had lost your mom. The pain absorbing your chest is overwhelming and you just rather feel nothing at all. You crave numbness.

"Please make me forget."

As those words escape your pretty lips, Eren eyes swell with sorrow. He wants to know what had happened and who made you feel this way. He wants nothing more than to hold and comfort you while you express your feelings about what happened. Deep down though, he knows you don't want that. You came to him to forget, not reminisce about the pain you had just experienced.

Keeping his grip tight on you with one arm, Eren reaches behind him and snags something off the coffee table. You have no idea what he grabbed because you're too occupied crying into his chest.

"Look at me and open your mouth." He demands but in a tone so sweet you could never deny.

Lifting your head off his chest, you glance up to him. Your vision is a bit blurred due to the tears but your ears work of course perfectly fine so you obey him and open your mouth.

Eren can't help but smile slightly at the image in front of him. You look so cute with your mouth open for him, obeying him like a puppy. He then gently places a single pill on your tongue. You have no idea what it is but at this moment you couldn't care less.

With the pill in it's correct placement, he closes your mouth by putting a few of his slim fingers under your chin and pushing upwards. This confuses you because obviously if you were gonna take a pill, you wanted something to wash it down but you don't question him. At this time you don't want to even think for yourself, you let him do it all.

"Go ahead. Swallow it." He commands, his voice emitting slyness instead of sweetness this time.

You gather up as much saliva as you can to replace what could have been water and force the dry pill down your throat. Once you don't feel it in your throat anymore, you nod at him to let him know you succeeded.

"Good girl." He praises, smoothly running his fingers through your hair.

That praise sends you over the edge. Fuck the drugs, this man himself was addicting. No wonder you couldn't stop thinking about him after you met him for the first time.