make me fade || e.jaeger

11. a sign

Determination and haste were the only two things Eren's body could prosper on as he quickly tries to dispose of all his illegal substances. He wanted nothing more than to take all his anger out on Mikasa then chase after you, but her pettiness brought more important matters to the table.

Eren could not afford to get arrested especially with the state his mother was currently in. He tries to maintain his composure while gathering all the drugs he had distributed throughout the house. If he were to let his emotions get the better of him, he might slip up and miss something.

Everything in his life was going horribly wrong and it was only getting progressively worse. With all the drugs accounted for, he carries them to the bathroom and flushes everything down the toilet. Everything he tried so hard to get, everything that gave him a chance to help his mother- gone.

Eren takes a deep breath before plopping down on the bathroom floor, leaning his back against the counter. Tears begin to slowly fall from his eyes as he weaves his fingers through his hair.

"Fuck!" His yell echoes through the bathroom as he slams his fist into the tile.

Not knowing what would happen next scared him. With his mind being haunted by multiple things at once all he can do is cry. His mother, his income, the police, and you are bombarding his brain to the point he doesn't know how much he can take anymore.

After a few minutes of losing himself, Eren tries to calm down since the police would be arriving soon. In this situation he figures he'd be fine because he disposed of literally every drug that was in his house.

Everything except the leftover weed he has in his pocket from when the two of you smoked together for the last time.

Meanwhile you are still walking with no destination, the tears drying to your cheeks from the wind.

You have no idea where to go from here, there aren't really any choices available. You obviously couldn't run to Jean; you weren't prepared to face him after all this. Your friends were not an option either because they literally warned you about this and you don't want to feel more stupid than you already do. Hell, you couldn't even go to Annie because her boyfriend warned you as well.

How could you be so stupid?

It feels as if nobody could comfort you at this point. You only have yourself to hold. It was your own fault though because you couldn't listen. The only person you can blame is yourself.

But why is it that every time you feel lost and distraught Eren's face appears in your mind, his voice echoing through your ears.

"I believe everyone deserves the chance to explain themselves just as much as everyone deserves an explanation."

Was he actually referring to Jean or was he referring to himself? Like he knew this would happen eventually.

Stopping on your heels, you take a deep breath and turn around, heading back to Eren's house. You did actually want to allow him to explain himself on his behalf but the curiosity of what was actually going on was eating you alive as well.

Approaching his house from afar, you catch sight of blue and red flashing light which causes your eyes to widen.

"Oh no." A mumble leaves your mouth before your feet hastily burst into action to sprint towards the house.

You nervously look around for his familiar face amongst the officers and even try to ask about him, only to be ignored.

Your soul feels as if it could leave your body when your eyes lay upon Eren being escorted out of the house by an officer, wrists bound together behind his back.