Clandestine

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Winter POV

Jaemin Sunbaenim from NCT. Of course, I knew him. Rumors spread around trainees that Jaemin Sunbaenim was a soft boy with a great attitude. I proved it myself when I broke down and cried in the corner of SM Building. It was a shame and I'm embarrassed yet he didn't laugh at me. He fully supported me and moreover, he gave me candies. That was sweet and cute. Well, let said I'm in love with him at the first encounter? It was cliché but I decided to be his fangirl from then on. I know, we as idols couldn't easily express our feeling, especially to the opposite sex. I did fully realize about that so I would keep my feeling towards him just for myself.

Anyway, long short story I would debut along with three other trainees under the group called Aespa. I also had stage name 'Winter'. It was nerve-wracking. I'm afraid yet excited. Every time anxiety struck me, I always remember what Jaemin Sunbaenim told me.

You are beautiful. You dance well and you sing well.

I know he just wanted to cheer me up and there was no other intention. Yet, his beautiful words and nice manner mean a lot to me.

Since then, I rarely met him again. I also busy with my debut preparation. Recording, dance practice, and also photoshoot. Yet, my feeling towards him never changed. Silly, but the fact was my admiration for him was getting stronger. I religiously watched his content in my free time. I even bought NCT Dream album online and hoped that I pulled his photocard.

When finally Aespa debuted with single Black Mamba, I put high expectation that Jaemin Sunbaenim would watch over me.

Jaemin Sunbaenim did you see me?

I finally debuted.

Was I beautiful?

Did I dance well?

Did I sing well?

I hope one day we would meet again. I hope you would look at me in the eye and say, "You did great, Winter."