Infinity, My Dear

Chapter Three: A Memory From The Past

"you have till 8 AM tomorrow to get ready!" Jenny says as she walks out the front door. "im already packing!" i yell closing the door behind her and running to my room. i have to tell tumblr... i have to tell facebook... i have to tell Tyl- i froze Tyler... i sat down on my bed and took hold of my knees. tyler... i kept repeating his name like a chant...

Tyler...

Tyler...

Tyler...

i got off my bed and sat on the floor, pulling out a small box from underneath my bed. in it, contained a letter and my razor. i opened the letter and began to read it. 

Emily,

i love you. i spent some amazing times with you, holding you when you cryed, laughing with you when you fell out of your chair because of a gif on tumblr, and even smiling with you when you would tell me about your day. i want you to know that you are the one and only person who was close to my heart, and with that, i thank you for everything you have given me. i want you to know that you are beautiful. i want you to know that you are amazing. i want you to know that i love you from deep down in this cold broken heart of mine. you are my everything, and with that i say goodbye.

Tyler

i hold the letter  close to my chest as i whip away the new tears that formed on my face. For six months now, i have read this letter almost everyday, cryed over it everyday, cut over it everyday. he commited suicide shortly after he mailed this letter to my house. i still remember the last words i said to him, i remember the scent of his cologne, i remember every last thing about him, as if he were right next to me. 

i pick up the shining blade, tinted red from our preveious encounters. i twist the blade around in my hand as i take a firm grip on it and tear my skin, or whats left of it. my arm suddenly goes dark red, and shortly after, darkness appears in my eyes to bring me into a deep sleep.