Defiance • Bellamy Blake [1]

36. I Found You

Octavia was in front, leading us to the village. Clarke walked beside her, the two talking. I looked over at Bellamy.

"How did you do it? How did you survive the explosion?" I asked him, as we walked through the woods.

"We ran. Finn and I saw an opportunity to run and we took it. We were followed by Tristan. He captured Finn, then me. Thankfully, Kane shot him." He said.

"I'm glad you're alive."

"You too."

"I thought I was never going to see you again." I said.

"When you weren't at the drop ship, I was terrified. I had no idea where you were. I didn't know if you were alive or dead. And it scared me so much. I don't know what I would do without you." Bellamy said.

I ignored the butterflies that just erupted in my stomach. I smiled at him.

"Crash and burn." I joked.

"Something along those lines." Bellamy said, with a smile.

"So what about Octavia? What happened to her? She wasn't at the mountain and she wasn't at the dropship. So where was she?" I asked.

"I had Lincoln take her away. I needed her to be safe." Bellamy explained.

"I understand. I just feel so bad for her. I mean, all I can think about, is how she lost Lincoln. Like I know the reapers took him, but how did they end up from trying to get away, to Lincoln's village?"

"During the war, Octavia was hit with an arrow. It was deep. I couldn't bring her back to the drop ship. Lincoln came and I told him to take her. Apparently the arrow was dipped in poison. Lincoln couldn't find the antidote so he brought Octavia to his village. He was caught trying to get the antidote. Fortunately, one of Lincoln's friends came and helped her. Octavia then took Lincoln's friend hostage. She tried to use him as a bargaining chip. She wanted Lincoln back. It worked. Up until the reapers came and took him."

"None of this should be happening to her. She should be with Lincoln, living a normal life." I said.

"Can you even call our life normal?" Bellamy asked.

I shook my head.

"No, not really."

Bellamy shook his head. Bellamy stopped and looked at me for a second. I stared back at him. He opened his mouth to say something, but nothing came out.

"I need to talk to Octavia." He finally said.

Before I could say anything, he walked over to Octavia. He said something and Clarke came over to me.

"I've been kicked out." She said jokingly.

"And I've been ditched. Welcome to the club," I said.

Bellamy's POV

"What did you need to talk to me about?" Octavia asked.

"Nothing," I admitted.

"Then why are you over here?"

"I couldn't be around Harley for one more moment."

"Why not? You just got her back. I know you missed her."

"I did but, I can't think straight when I'm around her. I don't know why. I get this weird feeling in my stomach and she's just so kind and selfless. I don't know what it is about her. I don't know why I'm feeling this way."

I didn't like this feeling. I've never felt it before and it was unknown for me. I've never had feelings before in general so feeling something this extreme wasn't something that I liked. I thought kissing her would fix this feeling but it just got worse.