☽ ▬▬ namumula tuwing tayo'y magkaharap habang hawak ang 'yong kamay; aking susulitin ang munting sandali ▪ blushing red whenever we hold hands; i'll savor the quick moments
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"Alright." Runa flipped the letter over so it was facing down. "I'll listen."
She always did, even when they didn't look like they did. "Thanks, V."
"I don't think she should be your friend anymore. I mean, is she even your friend at all? No offense, V, but you haven't seen her in years. You haven't talked, either. What if she's not what you expected her to be like?"
"Then—then I'll..." She trailed off.
"It's not doing good for you right now, what more if it actually turns out to be true? What if she's completely different? What then? I see you. I'm your best friend, and I've been present almost every day. I see how you act when she's mentioned. Don't make yourself revolve around her. Just because you like her doesn't mean you should give yourself up to her."
"I'm not giving myself up to her!"
"Okay, but you're depending yourself on how she thinks of you."
Bailey had gotten uncomfortable. He adjusted the collar of his Star Wars shirt and stood up.
"Or, more like what you think she'd think of you." He sat down on his bed.
Runa shuffled in his chair to face him. "Are you gonna pull out a powerpoint?" Then they immediately wished they hadn't opened their mouth. "Don't say I'm obsessed."
"You're not obsessed. You'd treat yourself better if you were obsessed." Bailey let out a little huff.
"W-well how am I treating myself now?"
"Okay, let's see. You eat a little less because you're off thinking about her, you zone out way more than you usually do because you're thinking about her, I see your texts, obviously because I reply, but that's not the point. You don't like it when someone tries to change your view on her—" He counted each one off with his fingers, "—you bottle up all your emotions and thoughts instead of telling them to me, which I'm totally down for all the time because I care."
"I know you do." Runa tried to reason with him. "I just...I don't think I'm ready to stop being her friend. I feel like I'm betraying the idea of her if I tell you what it's in my mind."
"See, that's the problem, if Maria's the one who's ready to let go, what about you? And again, you've lost contact with her so you're relying on memories. What if..." He didn't continue. Whatever he had to say would have been harsh.
Runa was silent. Too silent, for too long. Too many thoughts, too little time. Her big, expressive eyes were sad and Bailey didn't let himself look at them.
After what felt like hours but in reality was only a few moments, Runa said, loud and clear: "You're right. Sorry. I'm doing too much."
And then even louder; the sound of ripping paper.
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★ kee speaks hi 😰😰 i know this is super short but the next chapters will be longer i promise. i don't really care if no one reads this book i just want to wrap it up akfdklsjf
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